@gwencook Thank you for trusting all of us and posting and sharing your recent issues.
Do know that you are not alone with your feelings, doubts, and questions about your own sexuality... and for many, those feelings can change and flip sometimes often.
My first question is.... Are you presently seeing a Gender Therapist or any kind of Therapist at this point in you transition decision process? I know that you stated that you had seen a therapist in the past.
If not, I would recommend that you get an appointment as soon as possible. Your doctor should be able to make recommendations to you.
So, Gwencook, hang in there, stay strong and please get an appointment right away for some helpful therapy.
I will be looking for your follow up posts and please know that all us on the Forums are supporting you and rooting for you.
Hugs, and well wishes,
Danielle