Help me figure out what I am?

[Greendayfanxx]

Hi im Billie Im 17 and have always thought I was a transman but I kind of have a feminine side kind of... I really like being in comfortable clothing like tracksuits and loose t shirts but then I also love looking really cute like in a pair of overalls and shiny shoes and long hair... I come out as a transdude back in febuary and I have changed my name and I do want to go on testosterone thats something I really want to do but im really confused sometimes because I look at myself with my long hair and stuff and I think I look quite cute but the thing is I dont really like being called she and I dont like my ... things on my chest and I wouldnt want a female name idk I guess I like looking female sometimes but I dont like being called she idk ITS SO CONFUSING WHAT AM I?? someone please help any help at all would be appreciated // I think maybe im genderfluid but I prefer using he/him not they/them and I dont like being called she

[SallyChoasAura]

Hey I'm pretty much in the same boat as you. I'm either FTM or genderfuild, but I like using female pronouns instead of male and I also use they/them pronouns too. While I enjoy looking like a boy, sometimes I like to be cute as well. I'm sure that we'll both figure ourselves out with enough time.

[JB_Girl]

Yes you both will figure it out and determine where you need to go, and what you need to do.  Please don't do it by yourself though.  If you're getting some gender counseling through school or elsewhere be sure to disclose, and disclose fully.  If you are not yet, try to find someone to talk to.

To be Gender Fluid is Okay.  To be FTM is okay, but remember T will give you a beard and top surgery is irreversible.  I spent a couple of years where you are until I really knew in my heart what I needed and wanted.

I wish you both peace,
Julie

[SallyChoasAura]

Yes you both will figure it out and determine where you need to go, and what you need to do.  Please don't do it by yourself though.  If you're getting some gender counseling through school or elsewhere be sure to disclose, and disclose fully.  If you are not yet, try to find someone to talk to.

To be Gender Fluid is Okay.  To be FTM is okay, but remember T will give you a beard and top surgery is irreversible.  I spent a couple of years where you are until I really knew in my heart what I needed and wanted.

I wish you both peace,
Julie

Thanks so much for your kind words and advice!!! You know I'm kinda starting to lean more towards genderfuild myself though I'm not quite sure yet...

[JB_Girl]

Thanks so much for your kind words and advice!!! You know I'm kinda starting to lean more towards genderfuild myself though I'm not quite sure yet...

You have oodles of time. 

[Tessa James]

Hey Bille/GDF,

I can reliably assert that you are human as our moderators are shrewd arbiters of the truth and trolls.  As my darling friend Julie notes it is so good to talk these things over with someone who can relate to your experience.  I talk to Julie among others  

As a person who is trans and non binary it was initially difficult to find my place too.  I met and knew many trans people but they had a clear, typical, binary focus and i still felt out of place. Now we can see the growing numbers of we enbies coming out and owning our place in the world.  Some states and countries allow for third gender or X.  Your journey is unique, as is the way you define yourself.  It can feel confusing to others but we can have it all our own way.  Wearing a skirt and looking cute does not belong to any one gender nor does being butch enough to be in command.  Self described new terms like demiboi and grrrl are to be respected as part of the transgender umbrella.  Transgender is word coined in 1964 and we can expect that our history is being written by the survivors.  Labels work well for soup cans but for people it may take some time to know what's inside    PS I'm a Green Day Fan too

[Sno]

You are.
Welcome
Free
Independent
Wise
Caring
Compassionate
Loving
Welcomed.
You.
Are.

[JB_Girl]

You are.
Welcome
Free
Independent
Wise
Caring
Compassionate
Loving
Welcomed.
You.
Are.

Perfect, as are we all.
Namaste,
Julie