Help me figure myself out?

[Greendayfanxx]

Hi im Billie Im 17 and have always thought I was a transman but I kind of have a feminine side kind of... I really like being in comfortable clothing like tracksuits and loose t shirts but then I also love looking really cute like in a pair of overalls and shiny shoes and long hair... I come out as a transdude back in febuary and I have changed my name and I do want to go on testosterone thats something I really want to do but im really confused sometimes because I look at myself with my long hair and stuff and I think I look quite cute but the thing is I dont really like being called she and I dont like my ... things on my chest and I wouldnt want a female name idk I guess I like looking female sometimes but I dont like being called she idk ITS SO CONFUSING WHAT AM I?? someone please help any help at all would be appreciated // I think maybe im genderfluid but I prefer using he/him not they/them and I dont like being called she

[Northern Star Girl]

@Greendayfanxx
Hello Billie,  I am not trying to hijack your very first thread and post...
... but first things first,  since your are brand new here I am going to give you a warm welcome.. 
Thank you for coming to the Forums.

I am glad that you have taken the step to become a member of Susan's Place and that you have shared your  thoughts with other members that may read your posting.
I am thinking that you may lots more questions and concerns, this is the right place for you to be to find out what others have done that may have been in your circumstances.
 
Be aware that there are a lot of members here that can identify with what you may be going through.

WELCOME to Susan's Place.  You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others  and to read about others similar trials, tribulations, and successes.
It is nice that you had signed up so you can share with others and involve yourself with some give and take with other members.
When frustrated or if you have successes you can share it here if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. ....

***It's a very good chance that you might find that you will make some new friends here. 

Please come in and continue to be involved at your own pace. 

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Please look closely at the LINKS in RED, there are answers to many questions that new members ask... .... please read them over..
Again, Welcome.
Danielle

Here are some links to the site rules and stuff that all new members should be familiar with:

Things that you should read

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[Northern Star Girl]

@Greendayfanxx

One other thing, Billie, that I need to tell you, since you are one of our younger members ...
you might also want to go to and get involved in the "Youth Talk Forums" here on Susan's Place.   On that Forums section there is also a Youth Introductions section
                      https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/board,544.0.html
that you can introduce yourself there to let other young members know that you have joined Susan's Place.

There you will find other young member about your age that you can share you similar thoughts and stories with. 
Please explore all the Forum topics available here and feel free, as you are comfortable doing, to get involved as much as you want... post new topics that are of specific interest to you and start your own conversations with other like-minded members here.

Please enjoy your time here on Susan's Place.
Wishing you well, and again, Welcome to Susan's Place
Danielle