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[Jifoverskippy]

Hello everyone. I very been lurking for a little bit and I think I've finally built up the courage to come and say something. I was born a male and I'm starting to seriously question my gender identity. I've fought with depression since my teens never really knew why I had hated my body, my face, myself. Recently I came across a video on YouTube and listened to a transgender woman talk about her life and it resonated so deeply that I'm questioning who I am. The prospect of being transgender this whole time makes so much sense going back to my childhood. Having the same interests as the neighbor hood girls, playing dress up, playing with dolls, ect. Even remember as a child telling my mom I wished I had been born a girl only to have her tell me, "it's a phase". I feel like I'm in this weird state of euphoria/terrified. I've talked to my pcp and she was super supportive but she asked me if I felt like I'm a woman and I didn't know how to answer. I'm not sure if I'm fighting repressed feelings or what... Needless to say I now have an appointment with a counselor next week.

[Jessica]

Hi Jifoverskippy 💁‍♀️ Welcome to Susan's Place!  I'm Jessica.
I'm happy you made it out of the readers zone and decided to join in by letting us know a bit about yourself.
Going to a therapist is an excellent place to start.
Terrified euphoria is good term for many in the beginning.

I see your new here, so I'll post some links that may help you get better acquainted with the site. Pay attention to the site rules they can be of great help and don't forget the link highlighted red.  It has answers to questions that are commonly asked.  Then join in on a topic you find interesting and learn and share.

Things that you should read

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[LizK]

Hello everyone. I very been lurking for a little bit and I think I've finally built up the courage to come and say something. I was born a male and I'm starting to seriously question my gender identity. I've fought with depression since my teens never really knew why I had hated my body, my face, myself. Recently I came across a video on YouTube and listened to a transgender woman talk about her life and it resonated so deeply that I'm questioning who I am. The prospect of being transgender this whole time makes so much sense going back to my childhood. Having the same interests as the neighbor hood girls, playing dress up, playing with dolls, ect. Even remember as a child telling my mom I wished I had been born a girl only to have her tell me, "it's a phase". I feel like I'm in this weird state of euphoria/terrified. I've talked to my pcp and she was super supportive but she asked me if I felt like I'm a woman and I didn't know how to answer. I'm not sure if I'm fighting repressed feelings or what... Needless to say I now have an appointment with a counselor next week.

Welcome to Susans its a great place full of people with vast amounts of experience. There is a great wiki and we also have a chat room if you like chat rooms. Jump right in and ask some questions you know we normally don't bite 

Working out whether or not you are Trans may not actually be the difficult part. Its the questions that come after that are the ones that are really likely to impact your life. The very first question we all have to answer for ourselves after we acknowledge we are trans is  "What am I going to do about it" That particular question has far more ramifications. That you are questioning your gender indicates you are probably on the spectrum somewhere, as to where and what that means for you is something you and your counsellor will no doubt spend a great deal of time talking about in one form or another.


Congratulations on making it from lurking to posting.  I hope you can get the help you need from your therapist which I personally think is a really good place for most of us to start. It helps us sort out our own feelings which can be complex in itself. Hope you enjoy your time here at Susan's


Take care


Liz

[Northern Star Girl]

@Jifoverskippy
Dear Jifoverskippy:   
Thank you for introducing yourself.  Please know that I am not trying to hijack your thread but first things first.
I see that you are new here and may have questions and concerns, this is the right place for you to be to find out what others have done that may have been in your situation. 
Be aware that there are lots of members here that can identify with what you brought up in your introduction posting. 

I see that our very smart and beautiful member @Jessica has already sent you an official welcome message here on this tread that you posted your Introduction on.

Please allow me to also WELCOME you to Susan's Place.  You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others  and to read about others similar trials, tribulations, and successes.
It is nice that you have signed up so you can share with others and involve yourself with some give and take with other members.
When frustrated or if you have successes you can share it here if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. ....

***It's a very good chance that you might find that you will make some new friends here. 

Please come in and get involved at your own pace. 
Be sure to look at the Links that our member  @Jessica  posted below her welcome message, there is information about the site that will help you navigate around and best utilize the features here.
Pay special attention to the LINKS IN RED...
...answers to questions that many new members have can be found there.  .

Again, Welcome.
Danielle

[V M]

Hi Jifoverskippy 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

[Jifoverskippy]

Thank you everyone for being so welcoming and thank you Jessica for the info. I definitely had some trepidation about posting. I guess this is just one step of many to come. Thanks again everyone!

[LexieDragon]

Hello and welcome. I hope that your new counselor can help you sort things out.