Which hurts less

[Linde]

Ok I went to the endocrinologist appointment...my wife wished me luck....

I officially started HRT, patch and pill tonight!

Really not sure where this is going but at least I am giving Emma a chance.

Thanks all again for your hugs and support.   I know this is only the beginning and there is a long way to go!

Massive hug,

Emma

congrats.  I was also at the Edno today.  I am supposed to use two patches, one on each arm, and am supposed to continue with my <dosage removed by moderator> Finasteride.

I have to wait until I can start, because i get my meds through mail order, and estrogen is  controlled substance and they cannot prescribe a typical 30 day supply for the over the counter pharmacy!  You will have a head start by about a week or so.  I wonder if you can feel any difference in that first week?

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[Emma1017]

Hi Dietlind:

I was fortunate that the clinic had its own pharmacy.  A lot less questions or questioning looks at my local pharmacy.

I plan to track any changes.

Warmest wishes,

Emma

[Emma1017]

To All:

I have started a journal and documented my starting baselines.  I need to know what is actually affecting me personally versus all the information on the web.

If anyone has any ideas of what I should include in my journal as I start HRT, I would really appreciate it.

I am strapping in for this rollercoaster ride...

Hugs,

Emma

[Kirsteneklund7]

To All:

I have started a journal and documented my starting baselines.  I need to know what is actually affecting me personally versus all the information on the web.

If anyone has any ideas of what I should include in my journal as I start HRT, I would really appreciate it.

I am strapping in for this rollercoaster ride...

Hugs,

Emma

Wow Emma HRT is actually happening! You wont be dissapointed. Generally there is a feeling of light euphoria right from the start - document that! Also I have never read a scientific article about the estrogen buzz but I bet as your estrogen receptors take up the HRT you will feel a physical sensation thats hard to describe. A sort of uplifting, tingling feeling of well being that also exists in your chest, skin and abdomen. You may find yourself smiling more & becoming more chatty than normal.
Interactions with friends, family & aquaintices  will take on a different feel.

After 6 months the emotional aspect will really start to bite.

I would love to hear your experience!

Kindest regards , Kirsten.


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[KathyLauren]

Emma, congratulations on starting HRT, and especially on overcoming your fears!

[Emma1017]

Thank you Kathy and Kirsten:

This is the first day after starting last night.  I know its to early to feel the actual impact of the medications but I definitely feel the emotion. 

I left the doctors office yesterday and mentally pushed myself to open the pill box.  I took the pill right there on the street.  It had an immediate emotional impact.  I was finally doing it!  There was a very personal sense of elation as I walked to the train to go home.

I have to admit that later I had a very guilty feeling of excitement when I applied the patch.  I kept touching it to feel the realness of my decision.

I also feel the relief that I can still change my mind, hence starting the journal.  I need to know that I am benefiting from this.  I want to make sure that this is worth any further steps I may take and the damage I know I will be causing in my life, to get there.

Kirsten I will add "buzz" to the things I track. 

I don't want to make this the endless thread from hell if this is not the way this website operates but I am willing to keep posting on this thread if it is of any benefit to the group.

Please let me know what I should do.

Massive Hug,

Emma

[Linde]

I was at the Endo, too yesterday, and have a prescription for e patches.  I have to wait until my mail order pharmacy gets it to me.  I was concerned that the doc will ask a million questions to be able to justify estrogen.  He hardly asked anything, he was more concerned wit my type II diabetes than with me wanting to be a woman!

I came out to three female friends yesterday, and they took me cloth shopping!  It seems as if they are more excited than I am about me being their new girlfriend!  Tomorrow they will take me shoe shopping and see if we can fiend a bra for me!

I found my environment being way more accepting me as a trans woman than I was afraid they would be!  I have yet to encounter any negative feeling against it!  Almost everybody I know and care about is excited to see me happy.  When we checked out at the store for my girls stuf, the checkout person, an older woman looked a bit funny.  One of my friends told her, we have a new woman with us here, and the check out lady was excited about it!

[Emma1017]

Wow Dietlind:

What incredible news!  I am still very stealth to make sure that my wife can absorb the changes and stay with me.

I am jealous that you got to go shopping with other, accepting women.  How great!

Best,

Emma

[Linde]

Wow Dietlind:

What incredible news!  I am still very stealth to make sure that my wife can absorb the changes and stay with me.

I am jealous that you got to go shopping with other, accepting women.  How great!

Best,

Emma

But you have a wife instead.  I would not mind at all swapping with you!  I think I will never stop missing my wife!

[Emma1017]

good point...

[Emma1017]

Wow the second day of HRT!  The emotional pleasure is something I have hoped for all my life but never thought I would ever achieve.

Thank you all for getting me here.  I don't think I could have done it without you all!

With all my heart,

Emma

[Linde]

Wow the second day of HRT!  The emotional pleasure is something I have hoped for all my life but never thought I would ever achieve.

Thank you all for getting me here.  I don't think I could have done it without you all!

With all my heart,

Emma

After only wo days already?  And here I am sitting and am still waiting for mine to come! You are dancing on cloud 7 already, while I am still crouching through the mud.  I think this is unfair!

But I got my ears pierced today and sport real nice rhinestone studs in them!

[Emma1017]

Good for you Dietland.  I hope the earrings make you feel great!

Never a contest, each of us must celebrate what we can.  We are fighting enough as it is.  Enjoy.

[Linde]

Good for you Dietland.  I hope the earrings make you feel great!

Never a contest, each of us must celebrate what we can.  We are fighting enough as it is.  Enjoy.

But once in a while it feels good to be a little grumpy, one has to find reasons for rewards (like ear studs) to get out of grumpiness!

I am getting really twitchy waiting for my E to come in!

[Emma1017]

I am learning the art of patience and I thought I was too old for zen.

[Emma1017]

Ok I am really laughing at myself and all can join it on the joke.

Only 4 days on HRT, yes I said 4 days and all I am thinking about is "Breasts" (mine, of course).  I feel like a kid waiting in July for Christmas. 

I mean a serious moment of impatience.

The mature me says wait and see what happens in a year or two the other me is "what, wait how long?"

I going to need some new hobbies to get me through this!....maybe knitting.  Anyone need a scarf?

Thanks for putting up with this rant,

Emma

[Lacy]

Ok I am really laughing at myself and all can join it on the joke.

Only 4 days on HRT, yes I said 4 days and all I am thinking about is "Breasts" (mine, of course).  I feel like a kid waiting in July for Christmas. 

I mean a serious moment of impatience.

The mature me says wait and see what happens in a year or two the other me is "what, wait how long?"

I going to need some new hobbies to get me through this!....maybe knitting.  Anyone need a scarf?

Thanks for putting up with this rant,

Emma

Congratulations Emma!

Starting HRT is an amazing feeling! I two am waiting for some changes besides the feeling of joy to have started HRT. Right now, I'll take that and be happy. I have noticed that my skin is becoming less oily than it used to be. That is really the only physical change I have noticed so far.

Since I am realizing the amount of time this all takes, I believe you will end up with trunks full of scarves! Probably enough for everyone on Susan's!

I'm very happy for you!
Lacy

[Emma1017]

Agreed Lacy.  Sweaters for everyone!

[Linde]

I got a big setback today.  The insurance called me to tell me that none of the meds (diabetes and estrogen) is part of the formula, and that my copay would be about $1000 per month!!!  Just for the diabetes med it is $850!!  I think something is really wrong with the health care system.  I have a Cadillac version of insurance, what shall low income people do?

anyway, I contacted the office of the doc and gave him the alternative meds the pharmacist of the insurance recommended.  Now I have to wait until the new description is written and processed!

Trying to become a girl sometimes sucks!

[Emma1017]

Being transgender certainly toughens us up and the healthcare industry doesn't make anyone's life easier.