Dear Emma, i feel with you, and I am sitting here with tears in my eye. You are kind o lucky, bcause you are still able to have some control over your life!
My life exploded about 1 years ago, because my body decided to feminize itself more and more. I did not kn ow what was going on, I just became an angry and mean person, and I finally drove my wife of than 36 years away. she was, and still is the love of my life, and I have never touched another person sexually after my wife.
I am still alone, and I m pretty sure that I will be alone and lonely for the rest of my life. i have lots of really good friends, but they go home in the evening, and I am alone.
If I could do it over again, I would do everything to save my marriage! The happiness I had for 36 years cannot be replaced by the happy feeling I have for being a woman.
Yes, I am a pretty happy woman, but I am also a lonely woman! I'd rather would be a happy husband again, and if required, no woman at all!
I have no advise for you Emma, except try to safe your marriage, nothing in the world can replace those 40 years you had together, and many years you will have to come to be together! Don't become a lonely woman!
Love and hugs
Linde