That darn Moni - Mom told ME I was the smart one !!
So I am guilty of the following word to which here is the definition:
ru·mi·nate
verb
1.
think deeply about something.
"we sat ruminating on the nature of existence"
synonyms: think about, contemplate, consider, give thought to, give consideration to, mull over, meditate on, muse on, ponder on/over, deliberate about/on, cogitate about/on,
dwell on, brood on/over, agonize over, worry about, chew over, puzzle over
I am an expert.
Emma - Please do your best to get your mind off this sometimes. I don't think that means going away for awhile, but if that feels right to you please do so. There are two reasons I goof around with Moni.
1. It's fun.
2. To lighten the mood.
Like the time you almost said Emma when giving your name to someone. There truly are funny things on this journey.
Sometimes when we are out in public they just occur to us. Try to look at the ridiculous side of this whole thing. There really is one. There are two sides to this coin. The brutally hard one that causes pain and requires courage and the side that is beautiful, joyful, funny and affirming.
Try to see them both.
Now to turn this about me for a minute....
Emma and I PM occasionally and I tend to RUMINATE
about if I am ever hurting her feelings because of the whole tough love thing. She has assured me repeatedly I am not. But I was thinking about it today and even if Emma is tough enough to take it I got to thinking what about others.
What got me through transitioning was that kind of tough love but it probably is not for everyone. I am second guessing my approach on this forum. I would love to hear other opinions. Do I come on too strong challenging people? The last thing I want to do is hurt anyone, I want to help. I would appreciate responses from people that have read enough of my posts to have a sense of how I am and not just off the cuff comments.
Lastly Love takes many different forms. Love of a parent, a child, a friend, romantic love. What is love between people that only communicate in writing and have never spoken or met? I don't know exactly because it is certainly not to the same depth as the aforementioned ones but I say it can exist.
We love you Emma and the others of you reading this that don't participate.
We could love you more if we knew you.