Kim I am glad that you didn't PM me because you are right, this thread is about sharing.
It is rare Kim that I disagree with you (this is actually the first time
). In general you are right but I believe that my specific circumstances are different.
-I am 63 years old and timing is critical. I have been told that many surgeons who perform GCS, won't after a certain age.
-The surgeon I have selected is now scheduling for October, 2020. I posted here earlier that I was hoping March, 2020 so I actually have to wait 8 months.
-My goal was to do the GCS first because I can still be stealth for my job for my son to take over my practice, the surgery is more difficult with a longer recovery time and I can work from home.
-My plan was to have FFS later, after I came out.
-Assuming that I choose October, 2020: I will have had THE conversation with my wife well before then; I will have 16 months to work with Donna, the voice coach, the electrologist, the therapist, and give HRT additional time to affect my body; and all that time to re-evaluate my decision.
-Be confident that I am not "leaping" to do all this. I still don't/do want to. I absolutely understand the impact this will have on me and those I love, as you know from my endless thread (thank you again for being there for most of it). I won't grab any cancellations to jump ahead unless I am 100% (OK maybe 98%) certain (OK maybe it's really like 94.97543%).
-At 63 I have no idea how much time I have left and I don't intend to dwell on it but I would like to have some time as a woman before I age too significantly (yes that is me being very vain).
-I am confident that once I commit, whatever I don't know post-surgery will be joyously learned afterwards when I finally get to be me. I am not shy and I won't worry about the fools. I will be self-conscious like any teenaged girl buying make up and applying it for the first time, buying wrong clothes and walking in alien shoes for extended periods of time. The difference is my voice will be deeper, I am taller and larger, and if physically attacked I can kick their butt
.
Thank you for your concerns and thoughtfulness as always.
Hugs,
Emma