Hello.
I have a weird problem. I am pretty sure I am male. However about 9 years ago a nurse practitioner ordered labs on my hormones. The results were weird. I was told I had hormone levels which are "unheard of in a male which in a female would indicate pregnancy". I asked he what that ment and she said she can't answer because there are "laws" which say I have to tell her why I have female hormones first. I think she wanted me to say I was intersexed. However I don't think I am. At first I did consider being intersexed a possibility and talked to my family about it. They all thought I was expressing interest in ->-bleeped-<- and homosexuality and they were very hurtful and rude about it...except for my sister who didn't understand but who said she always wanted a "sister". However even she thought I meant a transsexual situation and didn't know about intersexed stuff. However since that time I did something which to me seems to prove that I am not and could not be intersexed. I got my wife pregnant three times! The second time she miscarried which was quite sad so I only have two kids to show for it, but still I seem perfectly able to impregnate my wife. I am fairly sure she has never cheated. She is terrible at lying and keeping secrets and just doesn't have it in her to deceive me on that level. Anyway I have read that there has never been a person who can reproduce as both genders so I find it highly unlikely that I am anything other than male. I also looked at my reproductive fluids in a microscope a long time ago in college and it looked like normal sperm to me. However I have talked to other doctors since then who also refuse to help me saying there are "laws" that I must tell them why I have female hormones first for them to do anything. Some of them can get quite rude and hurtful and the first nurse practitioner I mentioned even red taped me out of the hospital saying she didn't want to "ruin" her "Career" dealing with "weird stuff". Now I used to think it was just a fluke and that the lab had made a mistake. Then a few years ago my wife had a pregnancy test she did not need that was going to expire so as a joke I peed on it. The pregnancy test then turned positive. I really don't know what in the world that would mean. I also have tremendous difficulty losing weight and have terrible wild random pregnancy like cravings all the time.
All this being said I have a unique personality, and while I am confident and happy being a male and identify as male I would actually be just as confident and happy to be intersexed if that was the case. It's such a rare and unique gift that some people are born able, even if only in some small way, to experience biologically being both genders. I think the way society treats intersexed people is terrible. However, for all that I really don't think I am intersexed and just am having trouble getting help with whatever in the world really is going on with my body. I just can't get help because of this weird law which apparently demands I must self-identify as intersexed when I have no real reason to do so and don't really believe I am.
