Donica's She Shed

[Faith]

@Donica

I once asked if there was some kind of hat that I would have to wear if I got sent to the refrigerator?

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[Donica]

@Donica




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LOL! That's lovely Faith. I was worried it would be more in the form of a dunce hat or something to that effect. I'll do that hat with bells on as I know I will most likely be sent to the refrigerator more than once .

Hugs Faith!
Donica.

[steph2.0]

@Donica




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Bwahhahahahaaaa!

[Donica]

Bwahhahahahaaaa!

Oh dear! I sense something devious going on here? Are my refrigerator hat fears warranted?

[steph2.0]

Well, not really an update, but I read a post from Stephanie in her "The Stephanie chronicles" thread about the "I'll still be me". I read it just before leaving for some lab work for my FFS. While I was there, I started thinking about what she had said. I have to admit that I use that phrase, in hopes to, what I think, will ease the shock to my friends when I tell them about me. Truth! I use it because of my fear of loosing them as friends. Stephanie is right in her post. The truth is my not the same person I used to be. I was using that phrase to help ease my own fears of loosing friends.

Yes, I still have the same moral values and for the most part, will still like the same things. But the real truth is, I am different now and my friends see it and they will either accept me or not, regardless of how I tell them.
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I usually feel very safe at my doctors office where I get my lab work done. But today was a little different. When I first entered the building, I was deep in thought about Stephanie's post and didn't notice that everyone was staring at my.
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Maybe I was feeling a little more vulnerable today after reading Stephanie's post. I mean until now, I always thought I had a fairly decent handle on things. But in reality, I don't have a handle on anything.

Oh my gosh, Donica. I'm so sorry my post messed you up. I post my stuff as a way to vent. It's often stream-of-consciousness stuff with only a little editing to make it coherent, and I don't stop to consider how it might affect others.

I get into the mode where I think everyone is staring, too, but in reality my mind is blowing things way out of proportion. My way of handling it if I feel that way is to just look right past them, but watch in my peripheral vision. More often than not, they were just looking my way and their eyes slide right on by. If it's obvious they're looking, I do as Moni suggests and give them a sunny smile. It's usually returned with the same smile.

You've got a much better handle on things than you want to acknowledge right now. Look at how far you've come, and the plans you have. You're doing great!

Please accept my apologies for ruining your mood. I'll be more careful in the future.

Stephanie

[steph2.0]

Oh dear! I sense something devious going on here? Are my refrigerator hat fears warranted?

Oh no. Not an evil laugh (this time). Faith just cracked me up with the hat. 

An evil laugh goes like this: Mwuuhahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Wheeze wheeze.

Stephanie

[Donica]

Oh my gosh, Donica. I'm so sorry my post messed you up. I post my stuff as a way to vent. It's often stream-of-consciousness stuff with only a little editing to make it coherent, and I don't stop to consider how it might affect others.

I get into the mode where I think everyone is staring, too, but in reality my mind is blowing things way out of proportion. My way of handling it if I feel that way is to just look right past them, but watch in my peripheral vision. More often than not, they were just looking my way and their eyes slide right on by. If it's obvious they're looking, I do as Moni suggests and give them a sunny smile. It's usually returned with the same smile.

You've got a much better handle on things than you want to acknowledge right now. Look at how far you've come, and the plans you have. You're doing great!

Please accept my apologies for ruining your mood. I'll be more careful in the future.

Stephanie

Oh no Stephanie! Not at all girl. Your post opened my eyes and has helped me mature. Please,,,, there is absolutely no need for you to apologize. You didn't ruining anything and please,,, you don't have to be more careful in the future. It is your truth and honesty that helps many of us mature and get through the day with peace of mind. It was just as you mentioned, my mind blowing things way out of proportion. Everything ended well yesterday. It was just so creepy that this one guy was staring for so long with a disapproving look on his face that freaked me out. Again, he may have been having a bad day.

Oh, and good! I only got the crack me up laugh and not the evil laugh. My refrigerator hat fears are a thing of the past.

Honestly Stephanie, nothing but loving hugs girl!!!
Donica.

[Donica]

I just got a PM today on FB from some old friends we had back when the kids were young. Our kids and theirs went to the same schools and same scout troops. They have been following my transition on FB and have been very supportive.

The PM was to say hello and talk about the kids and the old days. They asked if I would like to get together sometime over lunch or dinner and reminisce. I was surprised they asked.

It would be nice but I haven't seen them in years and the only picture of me they have seen is over a year old, pre-HRT, wig and breast forms. I haven't posted any new pictures to FB yet. I'm feeling a little apprehensive. I'm still getting used to support groups, grocery stores and my doctors offices.

A little apprehensive nothing! I'm down right shaking in my pumps. I have yet to go that far out of my comfort zone by myself. I was thinking maybe when my daughter comes out to visit again, the two of us could get together with them?

IDK? Still thinking about it. Maybe I'll reply with that?

[Faith]

@Donica

Donica, if you don't mind me making a comment about myself again, I've been pushing my comfort zone every day for the past few weeks. People seem to have noticed an improvement in my mood.

I say go for it, push for all it's worth! 

[steph2.0]

I just got a PM today on FB from some old friends we had back when the kids were young. Our kids and theirs went to the same schools and same scout troops. They have been following my transition on FB and have been very supportive.

The PM was to say hello and talk about the kids and the old days. They asked if I would like to get together sometime over lunch or dinner and reminisce. I was surprised they asked.

It would be nice but I haven't seen them in years and the only picture of me they have seen is over a year old, pre-HRT, wig and breast forms. I haven't posted any new pictures to FB yet. I'm feeling a little apprehensive. I'm still getting used to support groups, grocery stores and my doctors offices.

A little apprehensive nothing! I'm down right shaking in my pumps. I have yet to go that far out of my comfort zone by myself. I was thinking maybe when my daughter comes out to visit again, the two of us could get together with them?

IDK? Still thinking about it. Maybe I'll reply with that?

Donica,

They asked you! They're supportive and are on your side. For what my opinion is worth, I think they are the perfect people to make the first contact with. If you can summon the courage, you will be so glad you met up with them. Just beware of happy tears!

Stephanie

[Donica]

Thank you Stephanie! I did respond to their PM and told them it would be lovely to catch up with them again. They are friends with Jessica Lynn. Their daughter went to HS together. Wow! Small world. They gave me their phone number. I told them the next time my daughter comes to visit, we would call and do lunch or dinner. I'll feel more comfortable with my daughter being there with me. I can't wait. Yes, indeed. I'm still working on handling that new emotional thing that is a product of HRT. It seems my eye's leak a lot these days. Most of them are happy tears. I will update everyone when we get together. Hopefully with pictures too. Whooo hooo!!!

Lots of hugs Stephanie!
Donica.

[Donica]

@Donica

Donica, if you don't mind me making a comment about myself again, I've been pushing my comfort zone every day for the past few weeks. People seem to have noticed an improvement in my mood.

I say go for it, push for all it's worth! 

Yes Faith! I've noticed that change in you as well. I'm glad to see it. It's time for me to stretch my boundaries too. And of course, you may make any comment you like girl. I welcome any and all comments from everyone.

P.S. Did Stephanie send that top yet? Or was it a dress?

Hugs,
Donica.

[Laurie]

Hi Donica,

  I too wonder if it is a shirt or a dress and thanks to coming to your thread I have now seen the refrigerator hat. I love it!! Have you ordered yours yet? Yes you just may need one.  Faith and (St)eph((a(n)i)e) definitely need theirs.
  It's great that your friends reached out to you and that you are hopefully going to get together with them. You'll get used to being out on your own eventually but it sure is easier with someone. And you know the rules, Pics or it didn't happen!

Hugs,
   Laurie

[Donica]

Hi Donica,

  I too wonder if it is a shirt or a dress and thanks to coming to your thread I have now seen the refrigerator hat. I love it!! Have you ordered yours yet? Yes you just may need one.  Faith and (St)eph((a(n)i)e) definitely need theirs.
  It's great that your friends reached out to you and that you are hopefully going to get together with them. You'll get used to being out on your own eventually but it sure is easier with someone. And you know the rules, Pics or it didn't happen!

Hugs,
   Laurie

Oh dear!!! Faith! I need the link for the refrigerator hat. Amazon is it?

Thank you Laurie! Yes, my daughter really does make it easier for me. She is so sweet. I was surprised to find that she has many trans friends too. I'm getting better. I just shake off the gitters and onward I go. More updates and pictures to come soon.

Hugs Laurie!
Donica. 

[Faith]

Yes Faith! I've noticed that change in you as well. I'm glad to see it. It's time for me to stretch my boundaries too. And of course, you may make any comment you like girl. I welcome any and all comments from everyone.

Thank you , on both counts

P.S. Did Stephanie send that top yet? Or was it a dress?

NO!  At this point I think she needs to deliver it herself .. Air Mail !!

Oh dear!!! Faith! I need the link for the refrigerator hat.

cafepress  I haven't seen it anywhere else.

Faith and (St)eph((a(n)i)e) definitely need theirs.

Say What?   

[Donica]

Cafepress! Ok thanks! I probably should have kept my mouth shut because now everybody has to wear a hat when we get sent to the refrigerator .

[Northern Star Girl]

@Donica

Donica, if you don't mind me making a comment about myself again, I've been pushing my comfort zone every day for the past few weeks. People seem to have noticed an improvement in my mood.

I say go for it, push for all it's worth! 

@Faith
Dear Faith:
Your secret is out....  without and doubt, we have all noticed a big improvement and a happy change in your mood and your disposition as demonstrated by your recent posts on your thread and other various threads around the forums....   oh, and the fact that you have posted and kept up many of your terrific photos of yourself.  As I recall that it was not too long ago that you did not want any of your photos to appear on the threads and posts....

Thank you for coming out of your shell so we can all get to know you better and enjoy our sharing of thoughts and comments with you.... and you with us.
Hugs and more hugs,
Danielle

[Faith]

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[Northern Star Girl]

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@Faith
I really like your graph!!!  If you can you always want to stay at the "blue" end !!!!
Hugs,
Danielle

[Donica]

I followed a link that Stephanie posted in her thread for a neckless she got. I ordered one that is just a little different. It's a treble and bass clef put together. I like how they rotated the treble clef upside down to form a heart. The chains are to short so I had to order longer chains. Thanks Steph! Off to the doctors.



Donica.