Yes and my GD is in full swing.
And it's really bad this go around and my alcohol usage has started to spike after not drinking for 7 months.
I've gone the whole year thus far with out really dressing or doing anything femme, then one day in early September, it hit and it hit seriously hard. It felt like someone threw a switch. I've started shopping for myself again, getting femme in my mannerisms. Pretty soon i will be shaved, playing with makeup, going out, and the urge to transition will be ever present in my mind. I start envying GG's for the things they get to wear and the things they get to do in their everyday life.
If i stay super busy, it will go away. Last year, my therapist gave the diagnosis i feared so much, that i truly had gender dysphoria. That alone helped me quite a bit as i had thought that my attraction to female clothing at a very early age was a case of experimentation that had damaged me, that it was somehow my fault. It was nice to get rid of that guilt, plus discover that i was using masturbation as a means to suppress my inner gender turmoil (endorphin release).
Things started moving forward, a doctors appointment was scheduled with an HRT specialist. I chickened out.
now i am here again. It makes me so exhausted at times. Sometimes, i just want to cry....
So to answer your question, yes it does come in waves.
