Hi
been thinking about how to rewrite this completely and like many hours put into it.. is it ok? i tried my best to leave the door open for them and like keep it to one A4 Page.
soo without further adieu, here it is.
ps my old thread can be deleted ..
Dear Mom and Dad,
I love you both and the last thing I want to do is disappoint you. For as far back as I can remember, I've been hiding who I am, struggled, been very unhappy and in constant pain every day of my life. The only joy of my life are my children. I love each and every one of them with no reservations what so ever, no matter what they chose in life I will love them forever.
I can no longer live a lie, I can't hide who I am or my need to be true to myself. It's time for me to move forward, to grow, its finally time to be me. To really start my journey to an amazing future. The breakdown of my marriage was the first of many steps towards freeing who I am, breaking the cycle of pain, hiding myself and being unhappy. The next greatest step is the slow transition from male to female. All my life I have been a female trapped in a male body. This was obvious to me since I was young and learned quickly to keep my secret hidden from everyone and learned to be what everyone wanted me to be, always feeling like a constant failure at everything I did.
I have taken the following steps in my transition to my true self;
- Began seeing a psychologist two years ago (second time seeing one about this), who is helped me work through important things. And continues to give me ongoing support and guidance.
- Over one Year ago I began Hormone Replacement therapy with a Doctor who specialises in Hormone Replacement Therapy. And who closely monitors every aspect of my health. So far, I am as healthy as can be.
- Working with a speech therapist on improving my voice.
- Discarded 95% of my male clothing and replaced it with female clothes.
- Began taking pride in my appearance and working to be healthier, by quitting smoking and going to a for a jog
- every second morning.
- I have come out to work, thankfully have their full unconditional support.
- I have also told Rxxxxx, my children, Nxxxx, and all my close friends.
- Organised consolations with various surgeons.
I have considered all facts of my transition becoming a female, how it will impact my children and my life. I have examined the word of God and talk to Him daily. I discovered that I'm extremely comfortable with the road I am walking. This incredible journey, my soul is at peace and I am discovering happiness again, the simple joy of living as the real me. Every day my heart and soul bubbles with the excitement and rightness of my journey.
I know that you love me unconditionally and I hope I have your support in this as well. I can no longer hide, living in constant pain and dying a little every day until there is nothing but a husk of who I once was.
This is a lot to take in, remember I am still me and I'm just striving to be my real self. I ask while you think about it all, that you refrain from speaking about my transition or anything pertaining to it to my children. For that is between me, my kids and Raylene (whom I'm open with about my journey).
I have also decided to hand back the car I was paying you off and Nxxxxx has the car keys. The car has been fully detailed. All my old social media and email accounts have now been closed and for the time being I ask that contact between us be via Letter. I am more than happy to answer any questions that you may have in this manner. Should you need it, included with this letter are business cards for free counselling provided my company and I assure you completely anonymous.
Your loving Daughter,
