2 months HRT and a little discouraged

[gracefulhat]

So I understand that HRT takes time, but after 2 months I see so little physical changes that it's a little discouraging. Mentally I feel so much better and that has been an amazing change, but I look on youtube @ other girls progress after 2 months and it's like wtf. My endo put me on really low doeses of Estradiol and spiro, and she tood me that it takes a year for girls to reach normal adult levels, but still, I feel like I am lacking in progress in comparison.

[Northern Star Girl]

So I understand that HRT takes time, but after 2 months I see so little physical changes that it's a little discouraging. Mentally I feel so much better and that has been an amazing change, but I look on youtube @ other girls progress after 2 months and it's like wtf. My endo put me on really low doeses of Estradiol and spiro, and she tood me that it takes a year for girls to reach normal adult levels, but still, I feel like I am lacking in progress in comparison.

@gracefulhat
I am so very sorry that you feel so disappointed and distressed regarding your HRT transition progress.

Please allow me to share some of my thoughts with you as you continue on in your HRT journey.

First and foremost, you should not feel disappointed....  for what is or what is not happening can be quite normal.
The transition journey is indeed exciting but the road can also be full of potholes and frustrations... that is where this Forum can be helpful as you share your experiences with us.  In your good times we will rejoice with you and in your not so good times we will be there to support you with our thoughts and words... and our virtual hugs.

As has been stated over and over here on the Forums on various posts, HRT will work uniquely in your own unique body. What you read about other transitioning members experiences with HRT most likely will not be identical to your own experiences.
The adage that you should know about regarding HRT and how it may work for various individuals  is "YMMV"  meaning that Your Mileage May Vary.

Some will experience more significant changes more quickly and then some will experience less significant changes more slowly....   it is all up to your genes and how your body reacts to the HRT.   Your doctor will  undoubtedly be looking at your frequent blood test results during your journey to determine if any alterations in the HRT regimen are needed. 
It is a misnomer to think that higher dosages will do more and do it faster, higher dosages can even hinder some of the changes that you would be looking for.   Trust your doctor's advice but do feel free to ask questions and state your concerns at your next appointment.

   PATIENCE is definitely required.... usually not much happens very quickly with HRT... but changes will happen.  Do some reading of other transitioners posts and look at many of the posted HRT timelines and the before and after pictures, sure some will seem dramatic but there are others that are not ....  reading those posts can give you a very rough idea of what you MIGHT expect.

Many times the very first noticeable changes can be felt and seen within the first 1 to 3 months...
For the MTF,  breast tenderness, breast bud lumps forming under the nipples and possibly changes in body hair growth, your own body and urine smell, changes in erections becoming less intense, libido, etc.

Without a doubt this can be very "EXCITING and SCARY all at the same time."   One needs to hang on for an amazing ride.  Some of my best and most appreciated and dramatic body changes happened at about the 5 or 6 month point through the start of year #2 of my HRT journey.   
Even though I was able to very successfully pass before I went full-time... when I did go full-time at the 1 1/2 year mark I have been passing 100% of the time.  Of course that is just my own personal experience, I suppose I can thank my unique body makeup and my genes for all that.

One more time.... PATIENCE is required.   The attitude of many people today is "I want it all and I want it now" ... that will not apply to HRT.   You might want to re-read what I just wrote so you can get a good grasp of the details that I mentioned.

By the way, from what I see in your Avatar/profile picture, you already have a feminine appearing face... that should be a big advantage to you once the HRT starts kicking in.  Please don't be discouraged.  You will not see dramatic changes on a daily or weekly basis.  I found that by taking my photo once a month that when compared with other monthly photos, the changes were quite noticeable. 

I will be looking forward to your continued updates as you feel free to post them.   Please write to me if you have any questions... I will do my best to provide you any answers or suggestions that I can.

Wishing you well,
Danielle

[Nikkimn]

Two months is nothing you haven't even hit therapeutic levels of hormones for the bigger more noticeable physical changes to kick in. Most people start to see those happen around 6-12 months. I had more subtle changes the first 90 days myself. I had almost nothing by month 2 softer skin that's about it. Now at almost 8 months tons of changes and it's been remarkable. It's a super slow process and the changes don't happen overnight.


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[Dani]

Judging from your avatar, I think you are well on your way. For myself, it took about 3 years of HRT before I was gendered properly, but I am much older than you younger girls.

If you take a photo of yourself every 3 or 4 months, you can really see the changes in your appearance much better. Try to keep the same pose and hair style. The u-tube videos may or may not do the same. Sometimes make up and clothes make a world of difference, especially for the younger girls.

[gracefulhat]

Thank you @ Danielle, Nikkimn, and Dani! I was a little depressed last night and I feel better after sleeping. i just need to be patient. Thank you all.

[alyssalove2790]

Some of the youtubers may or may not have or had a better body to start with.

I consider myself lucky to have an overall very androgynous body pre-HRT! In the LGBT+ group I belong in some confused me for a cis girl until I told them I'm a MtF trans, even showed them photos of my male self and they told me I still have these very feminine features. 

This is me, still haven't started HRT but looking forward to getting them!
https://scontent.fymy1-2.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/42701997_466820883815781_4293507337831841792_n.jpg?_nc_cat=111&oh=ed2a107bd5c78a5b55d74f5e0999f2db&oe=5C5E102F