So I recently cracked the screen on my phone, and since it was fairly old I figured I'd just get a new one. I have legally changed my name, but I'm still in the process of updating all of my accounts and documents. I went to get my new driver's license this past week, but I live in a state where they mail you your new license a week later. So I just dressed androgynously and went to get a new phone. Being deadnamed never bothered me too much before, but today it was like I was being stabbed everytime the saleswoman used it. All I wanted to do was just finish the transaction and get out of there. I've been in a sour mood since.
Maybe it's because even at this point its still very easy to pass as male. It could be that now that I know what being treated like a female feels like I didn't like being treated like a male. I hope this sort of thing isn't what the rest of my life is like.
