Hi Cody! I love your grandma. She is giving you the support that you need so you know that you are OK, and so you can face anyone who doesn't like you, with your feet firmly on the ground. Yay! And you are likewise empowered to pass that love, care, and generosity to the nursing home residents. Wonderful!
I'm in the back woods of New York state, too. North of Syracuse.
I hope that you find a sense of community, friendship, and give-and-take in these forums as you look to expand your social circle. Lots of inspiration and wisdom shared here as people share their stories about what their lives are like. Lots of kind support as people explain their challenges.