Quote from: Tanya1 on January 06, 2008, 06:50:43 PM
Let me first say a few things before I jump to new years resolution
Okay, today I was extremely happy with my breasts for some reason- they are getting sore (second time) and they are starting to point outwards slowly.- I like touching them every second.
Now my dosage just got upped and I've been getting really emotional- I'm starting to cry and last night I felt so sad because I felt lonely-couldn't sleep. It's hard because I never been a relationship with anyone and I'm still a teenager. What's so crazy is that I never found myself attracted to men and yesterday I was just thinking about getting a boyfriend- but the thing is I don't really want to get a relationship with them because they aren't very understanding and can get violent with a TS.
I don't know what's up but I think HRT is making me think of SRS and living fulltime. I'm not ready to go fulltime yet but I'm pretty eager too. Also I want to buy my first bra so bad.
So anyway I was looking at this girl's legs and they were pretty nice & round?
Now the thing is my legs aren't bad by bone structure- they are pretty skinny
so the questions are
1) overtime will HRT fill in fats in my legs, make them rounder, soft and more womanly looking?
2)) can HRT help the knee look less dominant by filling in fat?
3) I don't know what's up but I'm getting some stares from some women- like they are reading me or looking at my features
ps- I know everyone reacts different and there are several factors
so what are your resolutions?
This is what happened to me on HRT:
1. Yes, my legs and thighs became fuller and the knee rounder because of redistributed fat.
2. See #1
3. When you see a woman staring you can look at her, show a pleasant little smile, and maybe a teensy nod or just move your lips (no sound) to say "Hi!" This will be useful practice in understanding that much of what we say to one another is non-verbal.
Concerning HRT and your dosage, are you using estrogen under a doctor's supervision? If not, I warn you that estrogen is some powerful stuff and it needs to be used only when prescribed by your doctor. As you have seen, it can have strong effects on the physical brain, the mind, and the emotions.
I advise you to avoid guys until your transition is done. If you don't, you might end up as a sad statistic.
If you feel that you need to talk in private you can pm me and we will see where that goes. I am not a psychologist or a psychiatrist, just a woman who started her life in the wrong body. I am 56 years old and have made a lot of the errors younger people might make so I can give them a fool's advice.
Be well and stay well, Tanya1.
Wing Walker
Still Flyin' After All These Years
