14 hours and counting.
Thanks @Alaskan.Danielle.
Today I spent doing laundry. Last minute christmas shopping. sitting on the toilet, drinking way too much liquid. Overdosing on laxatives (14x the daily recommended amount, just sayin!)
But without a doubt the most asked question has been "are you excited? scared?..." and I couldn't come up with an emotion. None of those applied and I've been struggling to figure out what I have been feeling about this. I told people "resolved, next step, matter-of-fact" not really excited nor scared just Blah. BUT today WHAM! it hit me. I'm in disbelief. I'm just coming to the realization that I'm about to get a life long, unobtainable, unreasonable, not-going-to-happen-don't-think-about-it desire. Guess what!!! 13 hours 35 minutes!
When i was 12-15ish (maybe even longer) I had a recurring dream that I woke up and found I was a girl. I had that dream dozens of times and mostly the dream was the same (details not included.) but by this time tomorrow, my dream/wish/... will be realized.
and here come the tears, the flood gates have opened.