This thought came to me before (in/for this thread), and comes to me now - something you could perhaps try. With your fingers, with the lightest touch possible, touch your hands , move them slowly so that you feel the sensation, that delicious feeling of the lightest touch, ever so slowly, also touch your lips and cheeks, touching only lightly enough to feel that sensation, close your eyes and experiment to get as much of that delicious feeling as you can, try your abdomen, close your eyes and let your mind flow into that feeling, very very slowly, let it consume you, give up to it. do this whenever you can, set aside time just to relax, just for you. Just for you and these feelings. something we used to know - learning to feel again...
I also suggest you go to
youtube.com and type jacobson relaxation techniques in the search window and try different ones to see what you like. This is something that an instructor at Purdue taught me (I was in Boston at the time) when I was almost ready for gcs, but I knew i was still wired and not sufficiently certain. I found it in a journal at Countway and contacted him. He sent me a tape with the 2 forms - relaxing by tensing, and relaxing by relaxing. I practiced it daily for a couple weeks - game changer. It changed my life and made my journey much easier. Yes, there were other things I learned from him, but that being-able-to-completely-relax-when-I chose was pivotal to everything else. I had experienced so much pain in my life I had to stop and learn how to completely relax, let go. I still use this, or a form of it, every day as I continue to work through my stuff.
