You're only 1 year in, you know, you're just beginning.
Even if you sort out all your surgeries, treatments, documents and all the stuff needed, at once and in a pretty small space of time... This not going to change things that much: it's still gonna be a proccess.
In my opinion, and from my experience and reflections, it's a very common mistake to take transition as just a ta-dah, finger snapping, sudden paradigm shift and you're done like you crossed the rubicon and today is gonna be the first day of the rest of your life...
Nope. Not even close. It's a proccess. Takes time. Most people arrive to transition with years of emotional baggage. Those're not likely to dissappear in the mist magically. It takes time, takes healing, takes personal growth, takes self knowledge... and it's not gonna happen overnight no matter how much money, beauty or support you can get. And girl, you can bet on this one.
Many of the emotional wounds, the distress, the trauma (if you wanna name it that way) is stuff that needs to be addressed regardless of transition. You have to be aware that physical transition is what it is. No matter if you look like a goddess or just like a very modest plain jane, you're sculpting your physique and having some general readjustments done. That's all. There's still a lot to do.
Please don't neglect your emotional and mental health. Specially if as like you're saying you're suffering from anxiety, dissociation, and other significant issues (yea, they are). Surrender yourself of good friends, family and nice people in general. Make use of therapists: they exist because a reason, and despite what many people would say, there still are some really good therapists out there (btw they don't need neccesarily to be transgender-care specialists) and again, please remember that this is gonna be a trip, and you're barely giving your first steps.