Quote from: Tessa James on February 01, 2019, 03:14:37 PM
Questions of Sexual Orientation may be simplistic and reductionist concepts for some and, apparently, a lingering threat to others. Might some of us actually fear that a mutable and changeable orientation is possible?
Some people apparently need to proclaim frequently about their reactionary feelings and remind me of that old locker room talk. Perhaps some of us have been part of those discussions where people seem to need to brandish being straight? Groups of guys, too typically BSing about their sex scores and how much they are into women and ridiculing gay people. Some of the loudest in those groups may also be the guys who quietly hit on me as a femme gay man years ago.
Kinsey and company informed us many years ago of their research that indicated 37% of men had at least one homosexual experience. that was in the early 1950s in the USA. Today any very active gay man can assure us that there are plenty of "straight" men who wana get busy with them. We also know strictly "lesbian" women who have been married with a man and have children with them and lived that way for decades. All fine and good as folks determine their affinity group and labels for themselves.
But please don't let fear rule the day folks! Please don't fall for it. Our possible terms of endearment, orientation and yes, gender are as varied as the people who roam this planet. Attraction, romance, intimacy and sexuality are immeasurably pleasurable and who floats your boat may be around any corner if we give each other the time to actually get better aquatinted.
Forget about the labels, our orientation might be a place of certainty or a wonderful journey of personal discovery where loving someone is about sharing and growth.
When your sexual orientation goes against what society expects, (even demands), it can be a considerable challenge to proclaim and stand your ground. I'm in my mid forties and an AFAB recently transitioned, I was always masculine.
That means that society expected that I was mainly attracted to women. I never have been.
I held my ground, now that I have transitioned the expectation has progressed into a demand. The stereotype is apparently that trans men are lesbian women that want to fit into society better and if I don't agree with that then I just haven't opened up to it. Then I'm just repressed and fearful etc.
It would be much easier to go with the flow ... it would be less hassle, less confrontation, less critic to just try it ... just be what others, strangers, feel is the accepted norm. I wouldn't need to confront or boldly claim or defend my orientation if I opened up and allowed it to shift.
I mean surely it would! Like if I would just open up to my femininity, get to grips with make up and skirts and be lady like, I wouldn't need to do all this transition stuff!
It is hard to go against the norm, to reject what society thinks should be, to stand your ground, to boldly and proudly walk out as yourself. People want to change you, to make you into something that fits into what they feel is normal.
I have chosen to not let fear govern my life or my sexual orientation. I have chosen, with fearless pride to admit my sexual attraction to males and masculinity. That takes strength when there are even some who will say that me being binary and attracted only to males is offensive to those who are not. Think about it..., me being myself is considered by some to be offensive to others. Is is really so bad to know your sexual orientation? Is that evidence of not having opened up?
Identifying understanding and knowing your sexual orientation is the act of accepting yourself as you are and not letting society, strangers, dictate how you should be.