Quote from: HappyMoni on May 26, 2019, 12:37:34 PM
I think my process was described pretty well earlier. If I was bi, it was a surprise to me. Maybe in the sense of having two seeds buried deep underground and one gets watered and grows while the other is nothing but a hidden potential.
I love this description!
Quote from: HappyMoni on May 26, 2019, 12:37:34 PMMaybe. I never had the hots for any guy in grammer school on up through college and onward. I didn't get nervous around them or think them cute or want to be close to them. Nothing, nodda!
It was the same for me, which is why I always came up with "no" when I asked myself if I was into guys. No attraction, whatsoever.
Quote from: HappyMoni on May 26, 2019, 12:37:34 PMMy transition happened along with all it's changes. Now, the female body might cause me jealousy. I see a hot girl and check out her clothes or a body shape I might wish I had, but I would be lost as to going to bed with her. Guys, much different story. No need for details.
YES!
Now, throw in being bi (more accurately, pan), I have a hard time distinguishing attraction and admiration. I guess this is far more common among lesbians or lesbian attractions than I realized. I thought I was just weird in that.
Quote from: HappyMoni on May 26, 2019, 12:37:34 PMI don't see this as bi. I don't see it as suppression, then or now. It is maybe the other seed being watered now, I can't say. It is real, I'm pretty sure.
Suppression is probably the wrong word and I really do love the way you describe it. It's not that we weren't suppressing it, even subconsciously, but more that the little seed didn't take yet. It hadn't been nurtured, watered, as you put it.
Both plants are thriving in me now, so one didn't start growing and one didn't wilt away.
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@Linde, if you think the lesbian pool is small, the pool of men that are willing to knowingly date trans women is even smaller from my experience. I'm afraid I don't have any hard statistics on this.
While my husband says he only thinks about me as a man, some things have come out to make me think there's an asterisk behind that claim. *I'm pretty sure he sees me as a woman with the added benefit of a dick and when he realized that dick was no longer functional as it previously had been, he started to lose interest in our relationship and he's only gotten more distant over the years. I'm not at all saying that's his only reason for wanting to exit, but it sure plays into it, along with me effectively being asexual while I don't have the right parts. No libido doesn't help.