Quote from: MadisonJoan on January 08, 2019, 11:38:47 AM
Hey. It's me, MadisonJoan.
Since I began my "Questioning," I've been asked "do you have gender dysphoria?" My answer:
Yes I do.
If the opposite of "dysphoria" is "euphoria," then I find ZERO euphoria in being male. I'm beginning to hate being male and how I have never felt "man enough." I'm not sure if that's dysphoria to the others but it is to me. I feel emasculated due to my autism and I feel it disqualifies me from being an "alpha male." To me, that's not making me feel euphoric.
As I mentioned earlier, I used to be a right-wing Republican in my early 20s. Until I went on SSI for my autism and O realized that the GOP would hate me for not being the "rugged individualist" that they appeal to. Haven't voted Republican since. But in addition, it was making me bitter and hateful as well, and I wasn't raised to be that way. I was raised to be tolerant and to love others. So I left the GOP and became a Democrat. I also felt that I was "cucking" my gender for voting for Hillary over Trump because I felt that he would be a disaster. (How right I am.) But the thing his: despite how he passes himself off as being an "alpha male," then I don't want to be one. He's actually quite the manchild. But that's when I discovered a bit of my dysphoria. The rise of the Alt-Right didn't help either. And if the Alt-Right is "masculine," then I want to be "feminine."
As of the past few days, I've had deep thoughts about who I was, what my values are, and what my feelings are, and while I still have some more questions to ask, right now, yes, I do feel dysphoric. Yes, I want to transition. But when the time is right.
Madison Joan.
Oops! Looks like this will be my coming out to the Family here. Count me in the "Transgenders for Trump" crowd. I really don't want to make personal life into some sort of toxic political struggle. I have really had enough of politics over the past decade or so, and just want to focus on my connecting my two halves to become a whole person. As much as I want to be rather mute on politics, I felt compelled to respond to some of the things that you have said to give you some insight that you may be missing and another point of view. We are all individuals, with different experiences and thoughts. I hesitate as I write this, but as I did with beginning the process to transition, I am going to persevere and take the lumps that may come my way. So I am willing to take the heat from both sides to be a bridge.
MadisonJoan, please don't take this as condescending or disrespecting your point of view. As jkredman eluded to, politics and who we are, as a person, are two completely different things. The extreme Left, and to be fair, some of those on the extreme Right, have blurred that distinction. Remember that it is We The People that empower this Constitutional Republic and Confederation of States, not the other way around. To that end, I am a staunch Constitutionalist. If it ain't in the Constitution, there is a specific process to put it there. President Trump ain't perfect and not a politician, thank God. Just look at where politicians of every screed has gotten us to. If you look at the glass half full, what the President did was not as awful as it is being made out to be by those on the extreme Left. If you look past that for a moment, you can see that the dialogue of conversation has been opened for ->-bleeped-<-. For too long, we have been wedged under the Lesbian and Gay umbrella. While we do have similar issues and goals, we also have issues, hurdles and goals that they do not. Now, we can stand up and force people to accept us, but at the end of the day, they truly don't accept us. The grow resentful at being forced or coerced to. That is not what I personally want.
Everybody has prejudices, in one form or another. It is just a part of Human Nature. Acceptance comes from mutual understanding, compassion and listening. It truly is a two way street. Freedom of thought is supposed to be universal. As such, there are the beliefs and thoughts of others that do not transect with our own individual ones. That is why opening our very own national conversation on ->-bleeped-<-/Transsexualism is exactly what we need. There is Truth in the old adage "You catch more flies with honey than you do with vinegar". As for those that would attack and do harm to a person because they are Transgender. Most likely they have malice in their heart against other aspects about people. They are marred by evil and no amount of anything Earthly that we can do can change that. As a Christian, I understand that is between those people and Jesus Christ.
As for your understanding that the Right wing is all about masculinity, I will have to respectfully disagree. There are plenty of powerful and admired women on the Right. One of the most revered was Phyllis Schlafly, who recently passed. President Trump has done a lot for women. In his businesses, he promotes women to high positions. Plenty of verifiable proof of that. He has nominated and put plenty of women in high places in his Cabinet, Staff and Administration. The CIA, the man's man of G-man is being ran by a woman. And guess what, even the MSM News is touting her promoting women to high positions in the organization. All done by the President's approval.
https://www.cbsnews.com/amp/news/under-haspel-more-agency-vets-and-women-take-top-posts-at-cia/https://www.nbcnews.com/news/amp/ncna954956Most "Right wing" Republicans that I know would have voted for Sarah Palin if she ran for President. Those same people would have voted for Herman Cain. Many of those same people voted for Ross Perot back in '92, instead of Bush Sr. Do you see the connection here? We voted for outsiders. It is the outsiders to the stuck in the rut politics of DC that affect change. That could be said about Obama. However, he had a propensity to force it on people, with zero debate, behind closed doors and in the dead of the night. Any wonder why he is resented so? Just as we had to accept that Obama was the duly elected POTUS, so to does all Americans have to accept Trump as the duly elected POTUS. The double-edged sword of Democracy hurts when it cuts across our grain. That is why the United States of America was created as a Constitutional Republic, not a Democracy. As a Veteran, I swore an Oath to support and defend the Constitution of the United States, with my very life, if need be. Thus, I tend to vote for whom I feel supports and defends that Constitution the best. Right wing, Left wing, down the middle; is not my priority criteria.
And MadisonJoan, I meant every word that I said in my previous posts to you. You have a beautiful and infectious smile. Your eyes give you away as a wondrous soul. No picture app can fake that.
