So, I want to let everyone know what I have been up to.
Now keep in mind I am not the ideal woman, but I have learned to accept my flaws and move past fear.
Cons:
I have extremely broad shoulders, no hips, massive forearms, big hands, and calves.
I wear a size 13 woman's shoe.
Pro:
I do have feminine parts, eyes, eye brows,lips, hair, thighs, light bread, and a summer complexion.
I know how to work with what I have, and that's thanks to being raised by woman.
I say that for two reasons.
One, it is the truth.
Second, everything thing I look up about passing I already knew or it comes easy to me.
I have accomplished going into Sephora and Victoria's Secret.
I want to add a little sidenote about Victoria's Secret.
I used to be big into cross dressing, and that was my ultimate wish to one day be able to conquer my fear of not only going in to the store, but buying something.
I have a couple of tips.
First, go into the store and do a walk-through. If you're feeling anxity leave then try again.
Second browse and buy, make your selection and then go to the cashier.
Most likely they will flag you as your birth gender. That is okay the more times you hear that the less it hurts. I have gotten to the point where people can stare, but I own it. I am authentic, and that is more powerful than a silly misgender.
I went to a thrift shop the other day I bought some skirts, and a few shirts that match. I was shopping for my first outfit to go full time at the endocrinologists appointment. It was a success I had a good experience. Since then all my personal errands are done as female.
Today, my outfit was flats, highwasited skinny jeans and a purple long sleeve shirt. I want to mention I weigh 277 pounds, and am told I look like a football player. I went to get my hair done a feminine shoulder length bob. I was fortunate enough to be cut by a man who made a mention he was gay. When I left he said it looked cute. I have to agree with him it is a cute haircut.
I just want to say this: do not give up.
This goes out to anyone who is to afraid say anything, and whether that is posting on this forum or coming out.
The scariest part is admitting your true feelings, and the rest is easy because you are one day closer to being the best version of yourself.
