Is this where I belong?

[Simone Louise]

I am using a name, a modification of my given name, that I picked out many years ago. But I have always laid low. I took the COGIATI test on another site and scored 100, which rates me as androgynous, probably not a bad assessment.

I am a 67-year-old male, married, with 3 daughters, one son, and 3 grandchildren. By now, you'd think I'd know who I am. Yet it was only six years ago I was diagnosed as ADD (not the hyperactive kind, for sure). Suddenly much in my life history made sense.

In November, my doctor put me on finasteride for BPH. It has a rare side-effect of breast enlargement. Rare, but I suspected this pill would find me out. Sure enough. My nipples are larger, and these cute little things on my chest daily grow bigger and fuller. I know, because I keep admiring them in the mirror and holding them in my hands.

So far, it's (they're) no big deal. No one else, including my wife, has noticed. The excitement and the euphoria have become intense. I love both the effect and the side-effect of this pill, but if I keep growing, I will need to change my life someday. Can anyone understand the feelings that dominate my inner life these days? Is this where I belong? I can't write more now; my hands are shaking.

Be well,
Simone Louise

[IsabelleStPierre]

Hello Simone Louise,

Welcome to the boards...and yes you are in the right place. You will find people who feel just as you do here at Susan's...so come on in and make yourself at home!

Peace and love,
Isabelle St-Pierre

[cjennyb]

Welcome Simone Louise,

You have come to a very special place.  There are lots of interesting and like minded people here, and you will find tons of useful information.   



Jenny

[nickie]

Welcome. I hope you find it useful and entertaining!

[Pica Pica]

Hello,
Of course you belong here, welcome. Just need to create your niche now.

[RebeccaFog]

Hi Simone,

   You belong here, so welcome!!!! 

   Don't be afraid.  It is awful strange trying to grasp all this stuff by yourself.  We're here to help and to assure you.  You'll find all kinds of people here.  You'll fit in just fine.  Even if you discover that you are not gender variant (transgender), you will find few places on the planet more accepting and you'll have a kick figuring it all out.

   I guess now you have to learn to be yourself so that you can just be yourself.   


My name is Rebis, please don't tell the others.  They think I'm Corey Feldman.

[Christo]

Welcome to susans place Simone Louise

[tinkerbell]

Hello Simone Louise and welcome to Susan's!

Thank you for your introduction.  Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the boards of the site, review the site rules before posting, and take advantage of our many resources such as the wiki, chat, and the links listed at the main page.  We look forward to your future posts and participation.  Enjoy your stay

tink

[Simone Louise]

Thank you all for your welcomes. The name Susan has a special meaning for me.

My first cousin was named Susan. Ten months older and more mature than I'll ever be, we lived a city block apart, but in different school districts. The year after I escaped with a BA, Susan earned her PhD. My father always asked why I couldn't be more like Susan.

She became an expert on gereontology (and a very close friend). Ironically, she died of cancer at age 64.

Now I have a place I can strive to be more like Susan: Susan's Place.

May this be a blessed place for us all,
Simone

[Joyce]

Howdy, Simone Louise -- ain't it fascinating learning new things about yourself?  I've finally come to the conclusion that you simply had better never say never because everything's possible.  Oh, and don't get too comfortable thinking you've got it all figured out -- about 4 years ago, I would have said I had it all figured out, and here I am a few years later, everything turned upside down, painful and confusing, but also exciting and finally authentic.

[lady amarant]

A namesake! Yay!

The day you stop learning about yourself is the day you're dead - or could just as well be, in my opinion. After all, it's really the only reason we're even in these bodies (if you're a reincarnationist, that is...) - to learn, to experience, to explore and understand our SELVES better.

Welcome! Hope you have a great time learning and growing here. I'm fairly new on here myself, and it's been really great so far.

Blessed Be,

Simone