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Started by Maddie, April 07, 2019, 06:00:55 PM

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krobinson103

Quote from: Maddie on April 20, 2019, 09:47:01 AM
Update from appt with counselor this week:
They suggest I contact clinic and try to move up my appt for HRT.
Its set up for September, but counselor seems to think they can get me started sooner.

This isn't my first time around with this.
Mind is still dancing around, back and forth, regarding irreversible effects of HRT.

I know that I definitely have a woman inside me.  But I'm not always sure that "she" is alone in here!

You have 3-4 months on hrt to make up your mind till that really kicks in. :) If you try and realize you don't like the effects you can stop before that time.
Every day is a totally awesome day
Every day provides opportunities and challenges
Every challenge leads to an opportunity
Every fear faced leads to one more strength
Every strength leads to greater success
Success leads to self esteem
Self Esteem leads to happiness.
Cherish every day.
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pamelatransuk

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Maddie

Thank you for your kind words.

As regards your latest update, I suggest you have nothing to lose by trying to bring forward your start of HRT from September to a more imminent date as clearly your counsellor thinks you are ready. Your decision of course.

If you desire to bring forward, I hope the clinic may accommodate you accordingly.

Hugs

Pamela


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Maddie

My appointment at a clinic to (hopefully) restart HRT has been moved up sooner, to July :)
They also put me on a waiting list to get called in before then,  if something opens up.
Glad my counselor suggested I call them!

Now I feel like keeping my phone charged and the ringtone turned on
Crossdressed as small child. Told parents, then hid it.
1980s-2010s Alternately "out" to varying degrees and/or outright denial and man-faking
2015 Surrendered/allowed my she-self to show more outwardly. Changes begin.
Currently working with counselor. No HRT or surgeries yet.
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CynthiaAnn

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pamelatransuk

That is great news, Maddie.

Pamela


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Maddie

Received a phone call from the woman I was engaged to and lived with for a couple years.  Hadn't heard from her in a long while.

Funny thing, she is now living with a transwoman with my same first name(male name, the one I was born with, and the name my ex knows me as)

She tells me that this person, who goes by their initial for a name, now regrets being on HRT for years, that it made their breasts grow in malformed, and ruined the shape of their face. This person, who apparently identifies as transwoman, uses the he/him pronouns, apparently because of the way they still look after HRT.

Although we have not been in touch for years, my ex knows me as well as anybody, and she seemed concerned that I would have the same regrets as "T", her roommate.

My ex would have little way of knowing I have an appt for starting HRT soon. She knows who I think I am, and my gender issues were not what split us up back then.

Yes, I am now concerned about malformed breasts that don't look female, and  negative effects of HRT on my face.!!

Funny timing. And it is confusing me.
Crossdressed as small child. Told parents, then hid it.
1980s-2010s Alternately "out" to varying degrees and/or outright denial and man-faking
2015 Surrendered/allowed my she-self to show more outwardly. Changes begin.
Currently working with counselor. No HRT or surgeries yet.
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TonyaW

I'd guess the malformed breasts would be referring to tubular or tuberous breast formation. I believe that can happen from too much estrogen too fast, hence the low starting doses and gradual increases.
I can't say that I've read about anyone here on Susan's that has mentioned having that issue. You said appointment so that means you're doing it under medical supervision, so you should be just fine.

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CynthiaAnn

Hi Maddie, given your ex' knows the direction your headed, perhaps this topic came up apparently to "mess with your mind ?!", sounds like a bit of drama, given her new lover has similar old names (that's coinky dink). While everyone is different, I would expect the risks to be fairly low for a healthy adult. You are seeing a Dr, full steam ahead....

BTW, your new avatar pic is adorable  :)

Cynthia -
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pamelatransuk

A sad story and an aspect of HRT I have not seen before.

My advice remains that you pursue HRT (under medical supervision as you have already arranged) in July.

Hugs

Pamela


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Maddie

Thank you gals for replying.
I was feeling hopeless and quitty,  Grateful that you are willing to be strong advisors, because I need a firm guidance sometimes
Now I'm feeling good again today about moving forward with HRT.
Still have concerns and worries how HRT will affect my fight to unlock a life that is happy and healthy as possible. Hoping it really is a key.

And Cynthia, I feel the same about your latest cute avatar pic :)


Crossdressed as small child. Told parents, then hid it.
1980s-2010s Alternately "out" to varying degrees and/or outright denial and man-faking
2015 Surrendered/allowed my she-self to show more outwardly. Changes begin.
Currently working with counselor. No HRT or surgeries yet.
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Maid Marion

Interesting story.  Maybe beauty isn't everything if they are living with your ex.
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Maddie

Quote from: Maid Marion on May 19, 2019, 09:32:57 AM
Interesting story.  Maybe beauty isn't everything if they are living with your ex.
:) Hard to say, I don't even know how they're involved. I really wish her well. And the roommate too, considering what they've been through.
Your comment did make me smile just a little though Marion
Crossdressed as small child. Told parents, then hid it.
1980s-2010s Alternately "out" to varying degrees and/or outright denial and man-faking
2015 Surrendered/allowed my she-self to show more outwardly. Changes begin.
Currently working with counselor. No HRT or surgeries yet.
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Maddie

Hello.
Saw counselor yesterday. In between me interrupting him and babbling about myself, he managed to share website resources for changing name and gender marker on IDs and so forth. 😊 Even though i have researched these things before, more than once. I have somehow managed to remain unsure how to proceed.

Glad that the counselor is offering firm guidance. Left alone, I will usually second guess everything and not get far.
Crossdressed as small child. Told parents, then hid it.
1980s-2010s Alternately "out" to varying degrees and/or outright denial and man-faking
2015 Surrendered/allowed my she-self to show more outwardly. Changes begin.
Currently working with counselor. No HRT or surgeries yet.
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CynthiaAnn

Good Morning Maddie, hope your day is a good one, having a counselor you can bounce things off of, is quite valuable. IMHO the name change is perhaps the most significant transition milestone of the MTF path, even more so than GCS. The name change pays you back over and over in life. I love seeing my "real" name on everything, even 6 years later, it feels great !

Have a wonderful weekend !

C -
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