Thanks for the welcomes everyone!
Quote from: jkredman on April 12, 2019, 04:16:11 AM
The highs are higher. The lows are lower. Emotions can be more intense. Most importantly, yes, I've found peace with myself.
Oh absolutely, couldn't have said it better myself. The emotional impact has taken a lot of getting used to. I've noticed that the feelings are 'quicker', as well. Like, when I do get angry or sad, it both comes and passes so much quicker than before.
That's one of the things I'm loving about this process; I'm getting a firsthand experience at the differences biochemically between the sexes, and this side of the tracks is so, so much better, for me at least.
Then again there's is the question of did I ever truly feel like a male anyway (nope nope nope
), but that's a whole other can of worms.
Also, another struggle I've had, as I've been been on this journey, is that I don't have an energy/id/sense of self, whatever you'd like to call it, that matches societal ideas of 'how a woman should be', especially a trans one. I'm much more of a tomboy. I love Metal, cars/machines, leather jackets, etc, and my sense of style is a bit more androgynous. It's part of why it took me til my late 20's to be honest with myself. "I can't be trans, I don't even like pink!" I felt that I was somehow not legit because of it.
It sounds completely ridiculous now, but that's the mental trap I fell into. Even before I joined, this site helped me out with that, as I found a topic with several ladies speaking about their experiences being more of a tomboy.
It was also a massive help that my mother is an extremely independent pansexual with a very androgynous style of her own. Growing up with that showed me it was ok to just be myself, and that there are no walls but those we create for ourselves.
