Welcome Neo!
Navigating your gender identity can be a deeply personal and sometimes complex journey. It's great that you're reaching out to understand and learn from others' experiences. Feeling discomfort with certain aspects of being identified with your assigned gender at birth (AGAB) and exploring the idea of being a different gender are experiences many people go through when considering their gender identity.
Your feelings of disconnect from traditional femininity and imagining yourself in a different gender role resonate with a lot of individuals who are questioning their gender. Remember, there's no single way to be transgender. Some people have a clear sense of identifying as a gender different from their AGAB, while for others, it's more nuanced. You might partly relate to your assigned gender but also feel a connection to another gender, or find yourself somewhere in between. The term "transmasculine" could be a concept that aligns with your experience, encompassing those who are AGAB but identify more with masculinity.
I encourage you not to rush into labeling yourself. Give yourself the space and freedom to explore various forms of expression, whether it's through your clothing, artistic endeavors like drawing, or contemplation of how you want to be perceived. Focus on what makes you feel most comfortable and authentically you.
Finding a community that understands and shares these experiences can be immensely helpful. Engaging with others who are navigating their gender identity can offer support, validation, and a sense of belonging. Look into local LGBTQ+ or trans support groups, connect with others online, or continue conversations with your girlfriend and supportive spaces like this one.
Trust in your feelings and give yourself the time you need for this journey of self-discovery. There's no need to have all the answers immediately. By respecting your emotions and seeking out supportive spaces, clarity will come in its own time. You deserve to feel at ease in your identity, and this community, including everyone here at Susan's Place, is here to support you every step of the way.
Susan Larson
Founder
Susan's Place Transgender Resources
