Hi Everyone The following is from a thread called
Denial Beard, where I add more detail about what happened to me in this area.
I was lucky in the sense I really did not have much body hair as a result of puberty. I have the sense my puberty was delayed in some way. I know that around 18 or 19 my facial hair started to come through. I had one or two hairs on my chest, mainly in the breast area, nothing on my back and hairs on my arms and legs, nothing that was excessive. So from these vague memories, I realized that testosterone did not fully create havoc with my body and I was lucky.
My facial hair was normal, not too thin or thick and I never grew a beard. There was a period when I had a moustache. When I did grow one, I do not remember when, maybe around the mid 80's. It almost certainly was after reading an article on transsexuals and I have a distinct memory of this being a way to disguise my true self, or in my case, myself.
In December 1987, I certainly removed it. This was the time when Sarah first ventured out into the wide blue yonder. The reality was that I was hiding the truth of who I really was. While the exact reasons for these actions are now hazy, I believe they were driven by an unconscious desire to be female and when I did think about it, I realized I longed to be female.
At some point, I started waxing my face. While I'm not sure exactly when I began, I know it was sometime in 1988 and definitely before February 1989. I guess it was an outgrowth towards becoming more feminine, not that I realized what I was doing at the time. I continued waxing my face after February 1989 and I included electrolysis as well, until I no longer had facial hair. Which occurred about a year and a half later.
I disliked shaving and when I had to shave I seemed to be removed from the process. Women typically don't have facial hair and I certainly took care of that problem.
Best Wishes AlwaysSarah BGlobal Moderator
