Hello everyone,
I can't believe it's been almost a year since I was last here.
Time flies, even when you're in hell.
2007 was a rough year for me. At first I seemed to be doing well, but by September had hit a stone wall in my transition. October and November were months of deep dark depression and attempts at re-repressing my desire to become a woman. Instead of doing anything, I just chose to hide and withdrew from society completely. I lost myself in online games completely and wasted days weeks and months.
Instead of helping, my hatred of my male self got worse.
As of two weeks ago, I believe I've found my path again and have felt happiness for the first time in quite a while.
That path is one of transition and womanhood. I can't deny it anymore or I become miserable.
Even in two short weeks, I've made such progress as I had never seen before.
I've now spent entire evenings en femme and in public. I've come out to two more people that have not only been accepting but have been great.
I know I have problems and difficulties ahead of me, but I think my feet are well grounded upon the path and that this time I'll make it and not look back.
It's funny, but the happiest times I've had in the last 13 months have taken place only in the last two weeks and were either in a skirt or talking to a new friend like she and I were just girlfriends having lunch.
I think I've finally recaptured my love of myself, and I am definitely and definitively female.
It's good to be back.....finally! =)
*hugs*
Genevieve
