Hello and good afternoon to you all (atleast in the UK anyway, i know theres time differences)
I felt that my previous introduction lacked somewhat in definition, today i shall correct this and give some depth into my journey, i apoligise in advanced if some words are out of context this is due to my autisum. this story/journey is still ongoing i will update, maybe add a blog for my journey and experiences. i'm still very new to susans place, though i was previously here this was around 8 years ago!! gosh..
so without further a-do here we go
My name is Alexa for some, you may remember me. i joined susans place in 2016. At the time i was 27 years of age, at the very start of my journey and was on the waiting list with the GIC. During 2017 my life took a dramatic turn which resulted in me going into a downward spiral of anxiety and depression, i found that being on social media platforms was alittle un-nerving for me. As a result i had a breif hitus from susans place my account however still remained (yay). Anyway i approuched my doctors and with the aid of antidepressants sought to try and fix myself, it was a challenge but i felt i could see the light at the end of the tunnel so to speak and worked myself towards this. by the end of 2017 i was living in sheffeild and had been offered my first appointment with the GIC by June of 2018, my second was to follow in October of 2018 and then finally starting HRT in December of 2018. During this time i returned to susans place to seek support which to no doubt i got (thank you)
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. By late 2019 due to relationship complications i stopped HRT a decision i would live to regret. My partner at the time was not accepting of my transition and felt that she couldn't be classed a Bi-sexual partner (these were her words of course), however as the relationship progressed i found that it made me un-happy deep down and this projected onto other aspects of our relationship. we broke up in july of 2020, as much as i felt sad i also felt release, i could never explain this release and still can't, some freinds close to me explain this could be rooted to the woman i'm to become meaning she felt trapped because of my previous decision (This slightly confused me but i understood what it outlined). I went to my doctors again having a indepth conversation of the last year and what i had experienced, the same conversation was to happen with my GIC clinician. I underwent a number of face-to-face appointements and finally in February of 2023 restarted my HRT again, of course COVID-19 had a fundermental role in the delay of this due to the GIC restricting face-to-face appointments during and before lockdown. I'm now 34 years of age living my current life as the woman i really want to be and have began lazer hair removal in march of 2023, i currently have 1 session left out of 8. now if i do have anyform of relationships i'll explain myself, also explaining that i wish not to change this if they felt this to be a issue, i'm not as shy as i was i will basically tell anyone in black and white, truthfully and honestly, this is also credit to my unbringing though, on a day to day basis i repair and fix mobile phones laptops and computers, take my dog for awalk, shes a 1 year old akita X labrador named bella (shes lovely bless her), i enjoy going out with freinds i'm not a massisive drinker will only ever drink on occasion. i apoligise if this is so long, when i ment in depth i ment it hehe
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but i shocked my self with how much i'd writen. i look forward to the future here on susans place. the members, admins, greeters and moderators all seem lovely. thank you very much for acommidating me here it really means alot