Lilis Unveiled

[Northern Star Girl]

@Lilis
Dear Lilis:
All of us that are your readers and followers here on the Forum are so very happy for you
making it to the celebrated ONE YEAR anniversary of the beginning of your HRT. 
Enjoy the progress that you are making and thank you for keeping all of us updated.

There is more for you as you continue on in your journey.

Wishing you the best in what is to come for you. ❤️❤️❤️

Many HUGS,
Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

[Lilis]

@Lilis
Dear Lilis:
All of us that are your readers and followers here on the Forum are so very happy for you
making it to the celebrated ONE YEAR anniversary of the beginning of your HRT. 
Enjoy the progress that you are making and thank you for keeping all of us updated.

There is more for you as you continue on in your journey.

Wishing you the best in what is to come for you. ❤️❤️❤️

Many HUGS,
Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

Thank you so much, Danielle! 💓🌷

[davina61]

If you look at my avatar I am a dead ringer for my female cousin and that is from mum and auntie.

[Lilis]

If you look at my avatar I am a dead ringer for my female cousin and that is from mum and auntie.

Wow, Davina! Your resemblance to your cousin looks like a beautiful connection.

It's clear mum and auntie passed down something special, both in looks and, I imagine, in spirit too. 💓🌷

~ Lilis 💞

[Sephirah]

I am guessing this app kept your eyes pretty much as they are. In which case, you have the kindest, warmest, gentlest, beautiful, most sincere soul there is. I don't really pay too much attention beyond that.

[Lilis]

I am guessing this app kept your eyes pretty much as they are.

That's pretty accurate! 🔮

My younger sister and my lesbian niece actually have the same face and eyes as me... so much so that I never had to introduce my sister at big gatherings.

People would just say, "Oh, we already know she's your sister," and when I'd ask how, they'd say, "Because you two look exactly alike."

As for my niece, people often mistake her for my daughter!

In which case, you have the kindest, warmest, gentlest, beautiful, most sincere soul there is.

Lauren, you always know what to say to make me blush! 😊

Thank you so much! 💋🌷


~ Lilis 🫣

[Lilis]

Some medications will do that. 

ROFL! Freaking Spiro! 🤣

Take Depo Provera instead, that was what I was given.  No extra weeing.  After I had surgery Depo Provera was removed.

I completely forgot about your earlier recommendation and didn't remember to bring it up with my provider during our last session.

There's to much happening all at once. 

I have been doing some research on anti androgens. I'm  still not sure what is good for me, of course it is what is recommended by my provider, but I would like to have an input. I was going to make a post on this. But as I saw this I couldn't find anything on Depo Provera. I was wondering what many of you think.

It may not be available in the U.S., but I don't know that for certain.

I tried Spiro and Finasteride, but they were ineffective and interfered with my other hormones. They work by affecting the 5a reductase enzyme, which affects testosterone, estrogen, progesterone, and other hormones. Instead, they switched me to Eligard (leuprolide), which is an injection I get once every 90 days. It blocks testosterone production at the source. I also take Casodex (bicalutamide) tablets once per day. That does not interfere with any hormones but blocks androgen receptors, so any testosterone in the system will have no effect.

I use finasteride.

Just dropping these collective mind clips about different T-blocker methods here, so I don't forget to discuss them if any of these can work for me during my upcoming follow-up with my provider on June 23rd.


~ Lilis ⚕️🩺🥼

[Sephirah]

Lauren, you always know what to say to make me blush! 😊

Thank you so much! 💋🌷


~ Lilis 🫣

Hah, sorry, sweetie. <3 I am always drawn to a person's eyes. Window to the soul and all that. Which begs a question... hmmm. They're something about a person that you can't really change. Your eyes are warm, and kind, and curious. Sometimes you get people who can physically shape themselves to what they think people want to see but nothing ever reaches their eyes. With you, it's the other way around.

[Lilis]

I am always drawn to a person's eyes. Window to the soul and all that.

Which begs a question... hmmm. They're something about a person that you can't really change.

Your eyes are warm, and kind, and curious. Sometimes you get people who can physically shape themselves to what they think people want to see but nothing ever reaches their eyes.

With you, it's the other way around.

Lauren, that's deep, and it touched my spirit!

You saw right into me, and you're right.

I've always felt that no matter where I've been on the outside, my soul's been waiting patiently inside to be seen... and you're one of the rare few who actually sees it.

And beyond just your words, I felt something else, the power of your discernment.

Not just emotional or intuitive, but something deeper. Something divine, mystic... or whatever you'd call it.

It stirred something in my spirit, like a resonance, a knowing.

Your presence carries that kind of clarity, and when it landed on me, it left an imprint.

And for someone as perceptive, as heartfelt, as you to see me like that, it means more than I can ever put into words.

Thank you for meeting me at the level of the soul.

~ Lilis 💓💋🌷

[Sephirah]

You're going to be okay, Lilis. When the truth comes from inside you, and the outside is an expression of that... you're going to be okay, honey. However scared you might feel sometimes... you can't not be seen. Your light is too bright, sweetie. This is nothing more that a feeling from a weird chick you don't even really know... but I get vibes from some people. Well... most people honestly, It's not about what you say or what you do. It's more than that. You're going to be okay. More than that... you're going to be the you that you never thought you could be. You're already on that path.

I am so proud of you. I haven't known you as long as I'd like, lol. But you're someone very special. You've come so far in a short space of time. And looking into your eyes... I can see why.

Keep going, Lilis. Never lose the light in those beautiful brown eyes. <3

[Lilis]

You're going to be okay, Lilis. When the truth comes from inside you, and the outside is an expression of that... you're going to be okay, honey. However scared you might feel sometimes... you can't not be seen. Your light is too bright, sweetie. This is nothing more that a feeling from a weird chick you don't even really know... but I get vibes from some people. Well... most people honestly, It's not about what you say or what you do. It's more than that. You're going to be okay. More than that... you're going to be the you that you never thought you could be. You're already on that path.

I am so proud of you. I haven't known you as long as I'd like, lol. But you're someone very special. You've come so far in a short space of time. And looking into your eyes... I can see why.

Keep going, Lilis. Never lose the light in those beautiful brown eyes. <3

Lauren, your words are medicine. ⚕️

I feel seen and uplifted in ways I've never experienced before.

I want you to know that I treasure this connection. 🫂

I'm still unfolding and healing in many ways, so if I move slowly, it's not hesitation, it's reverence.

Thank you for seeing me and holding me so gently.

~ Lilis 💗

[Dances With Trees]

I am grateful to you, Lilis, and Lauren for sharing such a profound discussion with the forum. 'Seeing' and 'being seen' is such a sublime dynamic, more spiritual than perceptual and the way the two of you opened up your hearts for the rest of us to look inside was such a fragile gift. I'm going to say it again and this time I doubt I will take my back my words: I am blessed to have met people such as yourself and Lauren, and so many others, inside Susan's. I would not be who I am without you. Without all of you.

[ChrissyRyan]

Lilis,


You seem so nice and over time I think you will simply have a lot of comfort and happiness.

There are many things that happen during transition that was and is hard for me to deal with over my journey to date.

Soooo... have a terrific weekend!

Chrissy

[Lilis]

I am grateful to you, Lilis, and Lauren for sharing such a profound discussion with the forum.

Thank you so much, Annika, for witnessing Lauren and me so tenderly.

I believe the fragility of our sharing was held by the right hearts, yours among them.

~ Lilis 💓

[Lilis]

Lilis,


You seem so nice and over time I think you will simply have a lot of comfort and happiness.

Thank you so much, Chrissy! 💕🌷

You're seem nice too, I hope you have a terrific weekend as well.

Sending warmth and virtue hugs your way! 🫂

~ Lilis 💓

[Sephirah]

I am grateful to you, Lilis, and Lauren for sharing such a profound discussion with the forum. 'Seeing' and 'being seen' is such a sublime dynamic, more spiritual than perceptual and the way the two of you opened up your hearts for the rest of us to look inside was such a fragile gift. I'm going to say it again and this time I doubt I will take my back my words: I am blessed to have met people such as yourself and Lauren, and so many others, inside Susan's. I would not be who I am without you. Without all of you.

I kind of doubt that, Annika. Ever since I met you... girl, you've given off this vibe. And I don't think it's something you can hide. I don't think it's something you can pretend isn't there. It's the same with Lilis. And honestly it's the same with most people here. When you're free to just be, you just be. And people pick up on that. No matter what is going on in your life where you have to try to hide it.

You are both special. Lilis is intuitive. She is emotional, and vulnerable and the rare kind of person that feels all the hurt in the world... and wants to make it better. Annika, you are romantic. You are one of the Bennett sisters in a Jane Austen novel. You are both your own people but no less incredible. You are... you just are. And you are both a gift to this world.

I am blessed to have met both of you. It's people like you who make this cold, dead heart beat again.

[Lilis]

Lilis is intuitive. She is emotional, and vulnerable and the rare kind of person that feels all the hurt in the world... and wants to make it better.

Lauren, I'm starting to think you might be a prophet or a psychic, that seems to be accurate. 

I credit this part of myself to a mix of things:

GAHT, mental health therapy, spirituality, and the shared stories that I've read from the incredible women and men in these forums.

All of it has been shaping me in ways I never expected.

I don't remember being like this before my transition began. It honestly feels like I'm becoming someone entirely new, inside and out.

I hope that makes sense. It's the best way I can describe this unfolding experience... of me.

~ Lilis 🫂🌷

[Dances With Trees]

It honestly feels like I'm becoming someone entirely new, inside and out.

That must be such a profound and exhilarating journey! Is it also at times disconcerting or even frightening? Not that those things are negatives but I am curious (for selfish reasons). I think I would like to feel out of control. Not in a bad way. Just allowing the world to happen to me without any filters between us. I'm not sure that will be possible since they won't allow me to take spiro and that's the only androgen blocker offered by PP. And I'm not even sure that's a feminine thing. But wouldn't it be nice?

[tgirlamg]

I think I would like to feel out of control. Not in a bad way. Just allowing the world to happen to me without any filters between us.

☝️😀 This approach is the key that opens many doors...

Sometimes we want to feel control and power over our lives but, sometimes the real power is found in letting go of the steering wheel while having faith and trust that we will still arrive at the proper destination... 🙏💕🌻

Onward!

A 💕

[Dances With Trees]

we will still arrive at the proper destination... 🙏💕🌻

Thanks, Ash (with apologies to Lilis for usurping her blog for a moment). Destiny is difficult to micromanage but it's a hard habit to break. I really hope the HRT helps give me the strength to let go.