Hi Jess!
It does get easier the more you talk. I have been greatly helped by the women who are on this thread and am so thankful. I even came out to one of my oldest colleagues at work today and it was such a great experience as he opened up to me about his own family sadness. To paraphrase Ashely, until you drop the armour and be your true self, you don't connect meaningfully with others. It is so true and you will find that the shame dissipates over time as you come to accept your true self.
I don't know where you are in Canada but one year is indeed a long time to have to wait. When I came out to my GP in Ontario he also deferred to the "experts" rather than starting me on a feminising hormone regime. He was very supportive but said that he had no experience. Thankfully, I was into the "expert" system after a three month wait but I now know that if I had pushed him to read the Sherbourne protocols he would have realized that it isn't actually brain surgery, it is just helping our trans-wired brain receive the hormones for which it has been patiently waiting and coded to receive! If it is helpful, you could perhaps print and give, or email, it to your GP:
https://sherbourne.on.ca/primary-and-family-health-care/2slgbtq-health/trans-health-care/I am so happy for you over the progress that you have made this week Jess! Please keep us posted and never hesitate to ask about anything as our uber-experienced big sisters are so helpful to us baby trans girls!
Brynn