Sorry I haven't posted for a while. Sometimes the transgender pressures get too much, particularly in this environment.
I needed to disconnect and shift into neutral. I needed to stop thinking or at least try doing less. I wanted to stop thinking about being transgender but that was a waste of time...I think about it every day.
To make it more frustrating, I meet with my endocrinologist last week and the blood test showed I had zero estrogen in my system. Either the patches were defective or I have developed absorption problems. We're going to try the non-generic but the insurance company won't release the new prescription until the end of the month.
Maybe zero estrogen (and Trump) is the cause of my funk.