Been a while since I posted and thought I would update. Still slow going in my transition. I am in a very unsafe environment now so even any outward presentation has been stopped. I no longer will go out with clear polish on my nails even. I still live in the same place, but with Trump as president the bigots are coming out of the woodwork. We have some new people who have rented spots on the property now too, and one of them has a confederate flag flying and is an incredible phobe. So I am a little bit leery of trying to start any medical transition yet. My luck I will be someone who has quick results I couldn't hide and I am still stuck here in Florida for awhile longer. I do have plans to move to Colorado by years end though. Fingers crossed.
Came out to my Dad. He didn't flip out, but he isn't supporting. He has been sending me regular Bible verses ever since and making sure to call me his son. He says he is accepting, but actions speak louder than words, and in one conversation there was a frightening line of talk from him. We were talking about them political landscape and he pointed out that in his travels he has seen the old German symbol from about 90 years ago everywhere and it that it can symbolize all kinds of things. He is a highly intelligent well educated man who has never been a sucker to be fleeced until 2015. Now he is a Fox News loving bigot. I guess he always was, it was just hidden since it used to make one a social pariah. Ah the good old days.
My poor puppy is having a hard time with the shake up in his life this summer with my ex no longer around. His schedule has changed and he just isn't the same as he was before she left. I can see him moping sometimes, plus fleas are horrible this year and I am having a problem keeping them under control so his skin has been bothering him as well. I have tried the topical flea and tick stuff, he can't stand collars, so even if they worked he wouldn't wear one, so next step is the 90 day flea and tick chews. Hopefully those will give him some relief.
If you followed either of my other (since abandoned) blogs you know I have had problems with employment. I am still looking for the job I want to keep, and am still having some financial difficulties, but I am at least not starving and have a roof over my head. Gotta celebrate the small victories otherwise it all feels like losses right?
The good news is that now at home I am getting to actually feel a little less uncomfortable in my own skin. And the other bit of good news is that I found better insurance that my therapist accepts and now I can start seeing her on a more often, regular, and consistent basis. That will help immeasurably.
I hope everyone has an amazing day today!!!
Hugs,
Allison
