I did my first two steps

[NightAngel]

Hi all,

Yesterday I did my first step. I told to my doctor (she), that I'm TS and asking her if she can help me. My whole body was shaking and I admitted that I was almost start crying, but she was so compassion and friendly with me ... after I told her that I feel more like a woman mostly of my life, she said that I should told her this long ago and that I shouldn't keeping so long inside me,she gave me an adresse for my sexual therapist and papers to arrange the meeting with him.After I get home I was feeling such a relieve and sooo good, at last the things start moving by me too  ...

Today I did my second step and go to the my therapist and arrange our first meeting for 5.5.2006 !!!

I know it's a long way in front of me but at least It started, I'm so happy, can't wait 

***hugs***

michelle

[stephanie_craxford]

That's great news.

I completely understand your excitement as well as I felt the same way myself.  Keep us posted on how it goes.

Steph

[andy]

Good for you, Michelle!  It's a great feeling to finally get things moving in the right direction. 

[Kate]

That's great michelle!!!

That first step... of finally asking for help... can be SO hard. I made my very first call to a therapist from my car during my lunch hour. It took me days to get the courage to do it. I'd chickened out many times already. I wasn't so bad during the call, but as soon as I hung up, my hands started shaking... and the tears just came pouring out, partly in relief to have FINALLY started the process, and also in realizing that I really do have a problem that can no longer be ignored.

I'm so happy for you! Please keep us posted...

[rana]

So good to hear michelle

And dosen't it just go to show what appear to be huge barriers,  arn't that at all.

will be watching with interest to hear how things progress

rana

[NightAngel]

Hi Steph,

I believe that everyone who just starting feels the same way, I couldn't sleep all night because of excitement and relief  .
Thank you Steph,

Michelle


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Hi Andy,

It is a great feeling, don't know why I waited so long ... I mean I know, I didn't have enough courage to told my doctor about my transsexual feelings, but now I did it and if I started than I'll finished too.
Thank you Andy,

Michelle

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Hi Kate,

yes, that first step is SO hard to do it, but I suggest to everyone that it do it sooner as possible, don't keep those feelings in yourself as long as I did, because it's not healthy.
Many from you here, told me before that isn't so hard as it looks and it's true, the first few minutes were very emotional but after that she and I were talking like a friends.Well, I still go with a wet eyes thrue the door but those were tears of happiness.

and I'm so happy for you Kate!!

Thank you Kate,

Michelle

[Kimberly]

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she said that I should told her this long ago and that I shouldn't keeping so long inside me,she gave me an adresse for my sexual therapist and papers to arrange the meeting with him.
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I am probably overly paranoid but, gender != sexual.

Michelle, I imagine you will be seeing the proper kind and skilled therapist but it might be prudent to bring some educational literature with you anyway. This is too important to have some dip twit not know all the facts and think it is something else.

^*HUG*

[Chaunte]

Michelle,

Congratulations!  I understand how intimidating it can be telling your physician that you are transgendered.  That and setting up a time with a therapist are major steps.

Chaunte

[NightAngel]

Hi rana,

it's true what you said, it just looking that way but it's not at all, you just need a courage for the first few words from there will doctor lead you, asking you some questions etc ... yes, you will still shaking, even crying but the hardest thing is behind you and after you'll asking yourself why?why have I waiting so long? It wasn't so hard at all, I could done this before.

Thank you rana,

Michelle


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Hi Kimberly,

I am probably overly paranoid but, gender != sexual.

I really don't know what to answer Kimberly, because I don't know him yet but when I asking my doctor if I'm the first TS by her, she said no and that she will send me to the therapist which she believe is the best for my case but if I will not be satiesfied with him, she will recommended another one.

thank you Kimberly,

*HUG*

Michelle



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Hi Chaunte,

Thank you Chaunte,yes those are two big steps but it's one even bigger (I think and hope that it is the last one), to tell the family about your past and about your future. I think this will be the hardest one after that, I don't care too much about the rest of the people, what they will thinking etc ...

Thank you again Chaunte,

Michelle