Hi Simone,
I have found it easier and preferable for me to take a middle road where I mostly stay within my comfort zone while occasionally testing it.
I've let people know I'm gender variant at work, but it flies over their heads. Occasionally, I find a moment to allow me to make a comment that reminds them I am different in some way. I don't think I make them uncomfortable and so I like that.
At work, I've had a harder time when I'm in the engineers office. They supposedly went to school, yet they make gender specific remarks about women's driving and female emotionality over difficult work issues. I haven't really had 'the talk' with them yet, but I've been keeping myself from spouting off without thinking. It hurts my feelings when they start saying how women are bad at some tasks. I'm going to have to speak up sometime, but I'm choosing to blow it off for now.
I got off topic.
Oh, so I believe that there are ways for you to expand upon your self discovery in what might appear at first to not be a very progressive route. Because of who we are, we tend to pass in the world even though we are passing as someone we're not. A difficulty with an androgyne transition is that we often have no clear and specific idea of who we need to become. This really makes getting there confusing.
I believe that for us, much of the transition is internal as to how we think and feel and express ourselves toward others. How do we socialize? You know, that kind of thing. It's all highly personal and very individualistic.
I have been dressing plain for a while, but when I feel good, I like to add some femminess to my look. It's not a lot, however, it is enough to make me feel even better about myself and it makes it easier for me to be who I am.
I guess, all I can really say is that I know when it's coming together for me. It's something I can't verbalize too well at this time.
Rebis