Well, now I have told all 4 of my kids what I am going to do. They all reacted differently. This morning Madison, my almost 12 year old daughter tells me she thinks it would be better if I were a guy since people think I already am many times. my older daughter, Mariah is still taking it real hard. The other two younger ones are trying to figure it all out. I have started binding again, and I can grow somewhat of a beard not even back on T yet. That would be because I was on it 17 years ago. I cant transition here where my kids live. That will be too hard on them and me. I know way too many people here. I will have to move in with my girlfriend, which is about 35 miles from here. It will be too hard on them to see me change. My girlfriend is trying to explain all of this to her to kids, and she is in the middle of a bad divorce that ofcorse her ex blames me for. He is trying to get sole legal and physical custody of there kids in an emrgency hearing in the moring I will be going to with her. Im sure her ex will have his band wagon of people with him to try to prove Pam a "bad parent" Anyway, just felt like talking about it a bit. On the bright side I have a session this Saturday with my theripist, and I need to convince her I need to move on through this as soon as possible. Thanks everyone for being there.
Marco
