Chynna, your post about your feelings in regard to self medication was justifiable from your point of view, but the reply from Sarah Louise is the fact we live by on this system. Susan has declaired discussing such matters in the manner you discribe to be off limits on this system and we must adhear to that wisdom.
While most of the viewers here do not realise the actual dangers involved, they are real, very real. I have been brought down by two stokes since November of 2004 while under the best of psychiatric and medical care. I was prevented from taking hormones for several years because I have a chronic case of Hepititus C, which slowly but surely distroys the Liver and the doctors would not let me take estrogens.
About 3 years ago I managed to get my psychiatrist and doctor together and because of my belief in my ability to overcome the disability and my intense desire to physically transform my body, they allowed me to begin hormone therapy, with the stipulation that estrogen would be discontinued if I displayed any problems.
Things went well until a stroke brought me down one night at work. While in the hospital, my estrogens were taken away from me. I fought that decision and after a lot of straight forward communication we agreed that if I had a Orchiectomy I could resume on a much lower dose of estrogen and continue to physically develop.
The resumption went well untill I had another stroke at work and was transported to the hospital. This time the doctors are steadfast about me never doing estrogens again. I have gotten through both of these strokes with no permanant damage, retaining all my movement and speach, but somewhat slow in my ability to reason. My last stroke was in January of this year and I still am not allowed to drive. I will be taking an 8 to 9 hour test next week to determine my ability to return to work. Yes, it can be rough, and I have been lucky. And this is despite the best medical care I could hope for.
What I'm saying is that even with proper medical care, these things can happen, and only a foolish desperate person would self medicate under these circumstances.
Please take to heart that we here at Susans do as we do because we believe in safety and have concern for those who wish to transition. There are almost unlimited sources of information out there for those who are in the foolish set, and we do not want to be a part of one of the many problems those who wish to Transition to female form.
Just a word of wisdom to you Chynna, and I hope you understand
Terri