hello people
Now this is a strange sort of introduction for me, in that I have been here before, posted and read the postings of others here. I feel that I know many of you (well not really
) but you have revealed in your posts glimpses of your heart & soul; your joys AND your hurts. As such I think I know you better than many people I interact with face to face. And, many of you I relate to, if I ever met you would so like to go up and hug you, say hey!
I discovered Susans originally through chat, drifted in met Emerald and was hooked. Geez Emerald, what can I say
You are Childe Roland to me as Scarlett O'Hara (hopefully I have changed a bit since then) you always display the true manly Virtues - which so very few males even recognise let alone try to practice. Susan, I find there is a sort of depth and dignity to your Forum that other places seem to lack - I missed here & could not stay away.
The old me, well that was a flawed and artifical construct - came into being in dispair and in a time of crisis sort of imploded (O wow! flowery language tonight - what have I been on?). But its true, I knew for many years that there was somthing different about me and yes, zeroed in on what that difference actually was ( a feminine side sounds not really appropriate - a womans soul & spirit more likely
)
Trouble is, once a part of you is identified, called into being, it definately exists. When I got worried about consequences & tried to put the clock back - all that led to was a sort of private break down. And here I was back again stronger that ever. And happier too.
My wife was away for a weekend, and unaccountably there I went, shaved my legs,dressed in a hippie skirt & top & that's how I spent the weekend - privately but as a woman. God the feeling of release, sort of sexual but much, much more - if anything empowerment
Chaunte, I know exactly what you mean, - coming down to dress in my male mode again. BUT This I realise, dressing as the female me changes how I perceive the world and that way of thinking stays.
Bugger, the scroll effect is cutting in - so will wind this up, I do tend to rabbit on
Well, I have breasts - not that big but noticeable, was overweight a while ago but have lost most of the flab
trouble is that I tend to lose fat from the feet upwards so breasts become more noticable as body fines down everywhere else. However, I have noticed a lump on one of my testes and suddenly the fact I have developed tits becomes rather sinister. As my heading says. - I wonder did at some sub-conscious level did I do this to myself?? Putting it vulgarly - if these balls go, then I most definately will appear as "Merope" not all the time but often (amazing, that there could even be an upside to testicular cancer - if indeed thats what I have, will know tomorrow)
