Hey, first I'd like to inform that english is not my mother language but I try my best.
I'm a biological female of 24 years old who has been struggling with her body ever since the puberty hit me. Only then did I notice that my body was somewhat different from the "normal" female body. I didn't develop anything that could be called as breasts (I only got breasts when I gained some extra weight years later), I have a natural male "outward" chest and very strong neck muscles (my male friend once commented I have a male neck, ->-bleeped-<-ing hurt me but there you go) and wide shoulders. I have very unlike female hands and no hips either. All in all it seems obvious my body had its "odd" parts since birth, like the chest bones.
Occasionally I feel a horrible need to ask about this from my parents, like there is something I miss, like there is something I haven't been told, and then I feel just silly. I just feel lost. Isn't it true though that many later transgendered people have been exposed to the opposite hormone before their birth? Could some kind of extra testosterone explain my feelings and the parts of my body that are not feminine?
Mentally I'm quite boyish too or somehow gender neutral. I feel incapable of being in a sexual relationship because of my body aswell. I dont feel "at home" and I feel because of my body I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life.
Again, I feel silly. I'm not even sure if I'm posting in the right place.
