Hello Susan. Yes, I do take life a little to seriously and am generally a little to intense about things, especially if they concern things I have to live with. It's just a kind of second nature for me and I really do want to just learn to relax a little and smell the roses.
And fun I love, it's just that I can't get into that mood exactly when I want to. That's what I love about communication. No matter how sour I am at times, the right people can make me reconnect with myself, for a time at least and I can have incredible fun, but I must always be careful in that because I am emotionally immature, this mixed with certain ingrained mindsets and habitual reflex taken over by the emotional side can take me where I shouldn't go before I realize for myself I'm where I shouldn't be. It makes me highly stilted and stiff at times, while sorting out the middle ground, which is the goal, but it is the middle ground I must find before attempting to let the emotional side have full access to my life before I can responsibly handle the privialage.
And I am a very literal person, meaning I respond to words as i have been conditioned to receive them and react to them, and of course most of the world is a little loser in interpetation. What if's arn't a big part of my nature, only what are's and dealing with what is doable, and reasonable to obtain under a given circumstance.
I shouldn't be doing this, but I participate in forums as a learning process in handling these emotions and I thank you for allowing me to do it. Interaction is a big deal with me, but I have to respect a disipline when doing so among people who don't know me well as a physical being and so sometimes see a very different picture in how I may appear in life as opposed toseen in print. Anyway, all of the above is why I react so differently to different people and ideas, it just depends on how my emotional level is affected by the individual and how I deal with that as well as the issue.
I'm mostly over the "time bomb" mentality of a couple of years past, but I still have a lot of sharp edges needing to be ground off, and particular people help in that as they deal with me. There are those who I thank dearly for that, as they help to integrate me into a milder environment that is not at all my experience but is now my environment.
For me, forums are a place to learn balance with myself in an environment where others don't necessarily have the same mindsets and so just mirror my own feelings, I need outside of my own environment/background in order to understand the greater invironment around me which doesn't have the immediate intensity of what I am more familiar with.
See? Did it again. But I'm learning what to stay away from and keep my 2 cents out of so I don't provoke myself or let pieces of me take over my judgement.
As to discussing a perfect world though, it's just to big a concept as it is composed of all that is around us and how it is used. Even portions, like say Marxism, which as by Marx is pretty darn good, but it degraded, at least to the western mind, into communism and it's purity became corrupted by human nature, which should have been predictable before it was put into practice. Or Plato's Utopia, which is an ideal, but how would it work in the actual world of actual real people?
Yeah, I'm to serious about things and my nature makes me take things apart just to see how the pieces fit and relate to each other, Over investigation you might call it. a compulsary part of my mindset in an attempt to understand a given scene or situation at it's root levels with defined possibilities and impossibilities being recognized, though the seemingly impossible can at times be the fact.
Ok, enough of the internal review, I see the change in the opening, good you are narrowing it down to a more discussable subject. I'll just step out and let it go and come in when I see something interesting to me to respond to, I don't want to put everyone to sleep huh?
Just so nobody is confused, I deleted the post Susan was referring to in her quote as she narrowed down the topic considerably, at least to my my mind. As I took the original, It was just to broad to start with and needed some breaking down, which she has done.
And as she said, have fun with it, don't mind me and my myoptic views, after all, I'm here to learn from you'all, even if I don't or will never agree about some things.
Terri