Well, it's 2:45 in the morning here. My expectation of her kicking me out and retaining my deposit just came true. I got up to ... well, why do you usually get up at 2:30 in the morning, and when I got back to my room, a very nice little letter, all official sounding and stuff, had been pushed under my door. I won't bore you all with the details, but the highlight for me is this little gem of a line:
"You moved in here by deception and I let you move in under duress."
Gods, I mean, does my gender and/or sexuality have anything to do with me being a tenant? She makes it sound like I held a gun to her head. I told her about my being trans as a courtesy, and was ready to give up the room and the holding deposit I'd already given her. But as they say, humans will find every reason they can to justify themselves to themselves.
This experience has been karma in action though, the threefold law as clear as daylight. When I was at university, I was a landlord myself for a while, and I let my personal issues interfere with how I treated my tenants, not to this extent, but that's why it's called the threefold law.
This is simply the universe balancing the scales on my behalf.
And if there's anything else I can take from this it's to trust my intuition. I knew when I moved in, that this was a bad move, but on thinking things through rationally and getting advice from various people, I signed the contract anyway and stayed. My intuition has been growing stronger and stronger these past few months, and I am learning to trust it again, and I will never again let it be overrode by stupid rationalisations. Logic is fine for puzzling things out, but it has no place in decision-making. You need facts to think things out, and you rarely have them all before you're forced to decide.
I confess (sorry, wrong thread
) that I have never been much of a social person, and that this is new territory for me - being part of a community that really does care about each other, and about me.
Thanks everybody for the well-wishes and support. I love you all to bits. *Hugs*
Okay, so this'll be my last post. Tomorrow, well today later, I put most of my stuff into storage, PC included, and start doing the hostel rounds and community squats tomorrow night.
Blessed Be, all of you,
~Simone.
