Hey Kid

Simone(lady amarant) was on an anti-androgen for a year prior to starting E. She may be able to answer some questions... she
is away from her computer for a few days but you can PM her if you have enough posts. There may be others here that have
not taken E and they may respond.
If you can get an anti-androgen like Spironolactone, you can get E also.

If your afraid of the physical changes
from E that is understandable especially if your current situation demands that you be stealth. But in my
opinion you don't want to be on anti-androgen alone for any length of time. HRT is not something to "play" with
and it's something you should start after you have decided to transition... also just one opinion.
I'm not sure if posting links to sites where you can get more information is allowed by the forum rules, I suspect
it's not since I don't recall seeing them in the past. There is a LOT of bad information out there too so be
careful

Amanda