Well this has been a great day.
Today I went to Lytham St Annes ('posh' town south of Blackpool) to trawl the plethora of Charity shops there for some bargains... and my my don't posh people give some nice stuff away
Mum, Dad and one of my sisters came along too, although my Dad would later regret the decision to come after we'd been in about our 4th shop
The notable thing is that I went partly-en-femme, i.e. female jeans, t-shirt, denim shirt and some wrist jewellery (had my ears pierced yesterday too, got gold studs in atmo). I have to admit no make-up and fairly uni-sex looking trainers. Even so, I am getting there.
We found some amazing bargains, and although the prices were somewhat higher than in the charity shops in Blackpool, the items we found were superb quality.
I let my femme side roam totally and utterly free, I trawled through every rack, I pulled items out, I openly discussed their suitability for me with my mum and my sis, tried stuff on, came out of the changing rooms with it on, all unabashed and totally indifferent to any other customers or staff, irrespective of their gender.
However, I will admit that I stuck to trousers, t-shirts, blouses, cardigans and jackets, I didn't try on any skirts or dresses, although we did see some that we then discussed.
I am sure I saw two or three other TG's out shopping too (Hi, if you were one of them), I got a lot of friendly smiles from customers and staff, even comments from strangers along the lines of 'oh, that looks nice on you'.
In two weeks time I go to Germany for a music festival, with a band I roadie for two or three times a year. I am very very tempted not to take any male clothing whatsoever (except underwear - no point wearing panties atmo, all me bits just fall out the side!).
The overall thing is, that less that 3 months ago I was down, depressed, suicidal, had zero self confidence and self belief. I felt I couldn't move forward, I could never see me going out en-male let alone en-femme.
These days I am extremely happy, motivated, bursting with confidence and self-belief. Although at times still a bit reticent about going out, especially alone, I don't care what anyone thinks of me, or even what they say to me. I will wear what I want, when I want. I am no longer scared of who and what I am.
I am me and I will be me.
I deserve to be happy and I damn well WILL be happy.
