QuoteNot even to be Amanda? If it came down to that choice? Parenthood OR life as Amanda?
I kinda made that choice. And it just sucks. And I'm guessing that my odds of adopting as a (probably single eventually) 43 year old M2F transsexual aren't exactly much to bet on.
I hate to admit it, but I look at pregnant women much as people here report they look at sexy women: with an almost bitter jealousy and resentment. It's actually difficult for me to be happy for them, being so self-absorbed in my own "it's just not fair!" inner whining. I chose transitioning over being a parent, and it just infuriates me that I DID have to make that choice.
~Kate~
I'm not sure but I don't think so, not even to be Amanda... knowing what I know now... I would still choose the baby. It's
that wonderful. Of course I'd like to be the one to carry the baby... I'd like to be the one to do all that baby stuff. I would
have gladly traded places with my wife. I even asked about a year ago if we could have another... she said she could not
do it and I accepted that.
I know how you must feel Kate... I really think I do... but once you've tasted it and looked into that tiny face and hugged that
tiny body and smelled that baby smell of YOUR child... you just have no idea. And it makes me sad for you that you won't. But it's also
easy for me to sit here and say what I would have done. And it's possible and maybe probable that I would have made the same
choice as you. I don't know. Amanda is a pretty powerful voice these days... she won't be denied.. and had she been like
that when I made my choice... she may have had her way

Amanda