Sorry for long post, I am just soo happy
I just recently returned from a visit to the therepist I have had for ages, but took a break due to living in Europe and resettling back here. That took about 7 years from my progression which due to my job is already on snails pace, so I didn't miss any time.
I arrived at the office promptly 15 minutes early as I always do with appointments, fill out the paperwork (with a name she has never known me by) and wait. I dressed as I always do with slacks and a casual dress shirt. I made sure I did nothing out of the ordinary so I would not appear to be dressing up for her. About the time of my appointment she came out of her office and looked down at me and said "You must be my new patient." I looked up and smiled, then said, "Yes, I suppose I would be new since you have not seen me in 7 years." She stepped back and looked at me a moment and her jaw dropped. She had to step out for a moment, but bent down some and said "You look great."
The first thing that came to my mind was... okay, she may remember me, but no way... and that just had to be a comment to make me feel good. Ohhh was I surprised.
I sat with her in the office and she sat for a moment like she had seen a ghost and then said after several minutes..."You're FtM right." I nodded. "Yes"
"You worked at a jail before I think" she pondered. "No, was in the military," I replied.
A few questions later she stopped in mid conversation and said... "How are you able to pull off your life and job..... you're on hormones right?"
I had to of had the biggest grin I have ever produced at that time and chuckled. "I could only wish," was the only thing I could say.
For the next 15-20 minutes I was recapping my life and trying to pick her jaw up off the floor. She remembered me and wanted to know how I managed to mature and look much more masculine then I had in the past, to the point she believed 100% I was already on hormones. I honestly had no idea since I have never done anything different other then progress to a more professional apperance in clothing and find my path in life.
To have my own therepist believe I was on hormones just from my apperance and speech was the biggest boost I could of ever had. She is super anxious to see me on hormones now too because she wants to see just how much more manly I would look.
It was a great reunion because I had such a good time talking to her again and could continue my therepy under a casual schedule so I don't have to pay for bi-weekly/monthly visits. She defently had me feeling like a million bucks afterwards and helped me feel as if I was a person. Maybe it was my confidence and maturity level also that helped carry me because she commented several times on that also.
I don't know if it was parts of it, or everything... but I am so happy I made the step to see her again and ensure my recommendation for hormones would still be supported. It has to be the happiest day I have had in years outside of my engagement. Heck, I may just pay the money again in a few weeks to hear her say how handsome I was again!
Posted at: June 27, 2006, 06:52:47 PM
I just noticed I maybe should of put this under therepy? Oh well, I am too happy to care... but SORRY!
