It's done...

[Chaunte]

Everything is now out in the open.  This includces, what I will admit, is some inappropriate behavior on my part.

My wife could not accept this.

So, I am on the road and looking for a new place to lay my head.

I will be out of touch for a while, but I will be back.

Godspeed all of you in your journey.

Chaunte

[Kimberly]

^*Hug*
I am sorry Chaunte.

[TheBattler]

Come back soon Chaunte.

I am sorry to here about your situation.

Alice

[Melissa]

Good luck Chaunte.  You have just begun your new journey.

Melissa

[LostInTime]

Sorry to hear.  Hugs and best of luck.

[beth]

Take good care of yourself Chaunte and hurry back.






beth

[HelenW]

Chaunte, I'm very sorry that your realtionship seems to be at an end.  God speed and fare well, we'll leave the light on for you.

helen

[Kaitlyn]

I'm so sorry Chaunte.
Have faith that things will turn out for the best.

Best of wishes,
~Kaitlyn

[tinkerbell]

Chaunte:
I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through.  I wish you the very best and hope everything turns out the way you expect.  Please come back soon and thank you very much for your e-mail.  I'll miss you!

tinkerbell

[Dennis]

Good luck Chaunte, I hope it works out for you. Stay in touch with your children as best you can. They will really need you at this time.

/hugs

Dennis

[LynnER]

Best of luck to you, things will get better, please beleave that.  Rise above and stand strong, come back safe.

[stephanie_craxford]

I telephoned Chaunte tonight to see how she was doing.  She wants you all to know that she's doing as well as can be expected in this situation and that she is using lots of duct tape to hold things together.  I will not go into what caused this turn of events as that is for Chaunte to relate.  However she wanted me to let everyone know that she has a place to stay with dear friends so she is secure in that and employment.  Gill and I told her that she can come up to the great white north for a visit as she is not that far away, and in accepting that she just wanted everyone to know that she will be back in touch as soon as she can.  She does plan to move forward with this.

I'll keep you posted should anything arise but I'm sure that Chaunte will be back before long.

Steph

[HelenW]

Thank you so much, Stephanie.  Please keep us in the loop, I'm concerned for her.

thnx
helen

[Jillieann Rose]

Thank Steph for the information.
When I found this posting today I got real worried about Chaunte.
If you talked to her again tell her that many of us are praying  for her.
I know that will encourage her. I just wish her the best.
Jillieann

[Kimberly]

Thank you Stephanie.

[Chaunte]

Good morning, Susans!!!!!! 
:::Doing the best "Good Morning, Vietnam!" immitation I can muster:::

It has been 40 hours since I was told to leave, and I am still alive and well.

I am still in shock at the moment.  I knew that this would hurt, but I didn't know it would be this bad.  I am not angry about how things went down, but I am very disappointed. 

There are times the duct tape holds everything together.  Then something will happen and I will simply lose it.  My therapist believes that this is a good thing - I am trying to deal with the pain in small bites.  When I am done, I replace the duct tape and take another step forward.

I am so incredibly grateful to Ellen & her family for taking me in.  Being around people and keeping busy is helping to keep me wings level.  Or, to go back to the nautical metaphore, a little wind in the jibs & topsails.

Stephanie - thank you so much for your call!  It meant a lot and I have added your number to my speed dial.

Everyone here at Susan's - Your thoughts, prayers and well-wishes mean the world to me!  Lord knows that this girl needs every bit of support she can get right now!

I am sure many of you will read past the bold face I am putting on and see the hurt inside.  And it is there.  There is no denying it.  But, the mind is a powerful things.  What you belive about yourself is how it will be with yourself. 

I look at my situation this way.

I could a)  sit here and weap in self-pity for what has happened. 
               If I were to do that, I would be dead within 24 hours.
OR

I could b)  dry my eyes (for the moment) and take a baby step forward. 
               Every Day.  Every hour.  Every minute.  Another baby step.

Which behavior is the best lesson to teach my children?

Of course, I feel like I'm wearing Kendra's 5" heels.  :::: OUCH!!!::::  There is a lot of wobbling with every movement.

But every movement means another step.

Excuse me.  There is a call coming in...

ring... ring... This is the Bridge.  What course, Captain?
Second star to the right.  Straight on 'till morning.

We sail on.  No surrender!

I'll be back when I can.  It's not my computer.

Godspeed and, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.

Chaunte

And I get to see my kids tonight!!!!! 
YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Kimberly]

Chaunte, I believe in you.
^{*HUG*
*curtsey*}

[TheBattler]

What a great attitude  - I am sure once the pain of the moment will dull down you will see that this moment is the first day if the rest of your great life.

Alice
(hugs)

[Dennis]

Attagirl, Chaunte, hang in there. I'm glad to read your words and know that you're alright.

Dennis

[Kate]

What you belive about yourself is how it will be with yourself.

{{{ Chaunte }}}