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Quote from: me... This is regarding getting my mind to work the way it should, in other words I'm trying to figure out why I have such a hard time making my programs. I hope to eliminate my baseless inability. ...
Beth commented in the same thread:
Quote from: beth on June 09, 2005, 12:15:37 AM
I understand exactly Ms 4years,
i am having similar problems doing the work i should be doing. Sometimes it almost feels like something inside me is holding me back from being really successful again, it is hard to explain.
beth
I know Beth and I share a similarity and one that we are not alone in.
Our situations were such that we've always known who we were inside. In short the revelation of being transsexual comes as no surprise at all.[edit] I believe I have misspoke here; From observation I've come to the conclusion that we have all always known who we really are and that the only difference is how much that knowledge has plagued us during the course of our hiding.[/edit]
This makes me wonder if somehow in the process of knowing and denying ourselves who we are subtle damage was done.
So my question is for any who have always known but did not acknowledge your TGess, primarily but any are welcomed to comment of course!
Le question is do you have a hard time doing what you are supposed or need to do? For instance things you want to do, things you like to do, yet cannot seem to manage to do them.
Infuriating is one way to describe it.
Perhaps from (life long) dysphoria spawned anxiety ?