It hurts....

[LynnER]

  Been back on hrt for 2 weeks now after a 6 month well... those who have stopped know the horror.  Anyways I guess my body is still very receptive and Im allready starting to get the soreness again.....  It made my temp job a total pain in the chest.  <carying/moving heavy large boxes and such... and people who dont understand throwing them to you LoL>  Anyways it hurts and I love it.  Oh and my angsiety atacks have allmost totaly stopped again      Laters...

[Dennis]

LoL Lynn, welcome back. I like the pain only cause it means I'm building muscle

Dennis

[stephanie_craxford]

  Been back on hrt for 2 weeks now after a 6 month well... those who have stopped know the horror.  Anyways I guess my body is still very receptive and Im allready starting to get the soreness again.....  It made my temp job a total pain in the chest.  <carying/moving heavy large boxes and such... and people who dont understand throwing them to you LoL>  Anyways it hurts and I love it.  Oh and my angsiety atacks have allmost totaly stopped again      Laters...

I know what you mean.  I was forever knocking my boobs on things.  I guess it's better than having a pain in the butt.

Steph

[LostInTime]

Lynn,

I just started training for next year's soccer season, the first for me as a woman.  Using my chest to control the ball...well, ouch.

When I first started to develop it seemed that my chest found every door frame and circle clothes rack.  Ouch.

[JenniferElizabeth]

Well those may hurt. But I have a worse one for you.
I work as a hand held computer agent for a car rental co. So, all day I check in the people who bring the cars back.
Well, I've had my nipple hit by the top of a cars' door. The pointy edge!!!!.ANd Im not smart to learn the first time!!! Ive done it 5 times so far.OUCH!!!!
The first time it happened I bent over and yelled. And everyone around me was busting out over it(but not knowing why). The 3rd time, same reaction ( but with manager there, and they all know) She grabbed the printed and helped me until I could stand up.  Then she got another agent to cover and took me to her office and checked it out for me. Each time Id have a bruise across my nipple and around it.

[Melissa]

You're going to know your nipple off one of these days.   No problems with breasts for me.  It just feels natural to have them.  In fact before transition, I always felt like I was missing something on my chest and had to sleep with a pillow there for the weight since I was about 12.  Now I can sleep fine without the pillow there, but I put it on my stomach a lot of times anyways out of habit.

Anyway, I can imagine how bad those panic attacks must have been.  Just thinking about stopping scares me.  I had panic attacks right before starting HRT because I needed it so bad.

Melissa

[Dennis]

Oh I'm so glad to be rid of those. Imagine what it feels like to not expect them there and hate their presence and constantly bump up against things. Bleh.

Dennis

[tinkerbell]

Oh yes...the pain, the beautiful pain.....okay now I'm getting a little bit masochist here....oh what the heck? we  love this kind of pain, don't we, girls?



tinkerbell

[Melissa]

It's better to have the pain of my children occasionally hitting my chest than to not have them at all.  Just today I was musing over how natural it feels to have breasts even though I've had them for such a short time.  Sometimes I will grab one and it makes me smile to know that it's there.

Melissa

[LynnER]

Well, its a month in now..... and oh boy if I thought those boxes hurt I must have been on something LoL.... Got over zellous while drumming and whacked myself with a drumstick.... (realize even with the loss of musclemass I can break a glass bottle with one quick whack)  but its all good.  Im loveing it...

[tinkerbell]

Hi Lynn:

I'm very happy for you.  Things will definetely get better and BIGGER!


tinkerbell

[LynnER]

LoL, no kidding.... I was at a B before stopping HRT the first time around.  Allready Im noticeing a size diffrence... and Ive got the "bounce" back   and this time Im not ballooning heh.

[stephanie]

I recently lost my job and so now I can't afford to buy my hormones.  I've been off them for a month, after having been taking them for 5 months.  I wasn't really developed that much (having an operation to remove skin cancer across one of them doesn't help either - my "larger" of the two is now the "smaller").  I haven't seen much reduction yet, but the emotional turmoil has been taking its toll on me greatly.  I can't wait to start back up, and I'd rather have the pain of development than the pain of withdrawl.

[Melissa]

I was wondering what happened to you stephanie.  I remember you starting hormones shortly before I did.  I'm sorry to hear you aren't able to afford them.  For me, they are a higher priority than food, but then again, I can afford both. 

On the positive side, one thing I've heard though is people who have stopped and then started again notice a sudden jump in breast growth.

Melissa

[LynnER]

Honestly Id sell my drumset before going through the pain of withdrawl again ... I understand not being able to afford them.... was 7 months on, 6 months off.... and that 6 months was hell... between the physical pains, Loosing most of what I gained, the return of the anxiety atacks, the agitation <which helped force me leave my better job which made things even worse>, and finaly the morbid depression setting back in <which was a driveing cause on my part of the end of my relationship>.  Never Never again... unless its for actual health reasons...... and even then I'll try to find a way LoL

[stephanie_craxford]

Reading this topic makes me realize how lucky I  am to live in a country with the medical system that we have.  Sometimes I/we tend to take things for granted, I learned not to do that anymore.  The only time that I came close to losing my HRT was last year when my family Dr. closed her practice and I was low on meds.  I was in a bit of a panic as my prescription needed to be renewed, and before that had to be done I would need a Dr. to renew it.  Long story short, I found a new Dr. and immediately asked for and received a prescription for a year at a time.  I was not going to run that risk again.

Steph