Dear folks!
I wanna thank you all cordially for this wonderful web-page! I came across your forum a couple of days ago and it helped me to come out firstly to myself! Sorry for being awkward with words, it's just I'm overwhelmed with emotions..
It feel so good finally having come to terms with my real gender after all these years of confusion!
I will say a few words about myself and your comments would be very appreciated as we're all sort of in the same 'mess'
Well, I was born a female, but have never felt a real female, although I love applying make-up and more or less female or mixed way of dressing (but now never skirts, unless combined with jeans)..But like Nero stated (I guess it was Nero) girls always see an 'outsider, a 'wolf in the sheepskin'. I've always been surrounded by girls as friends but in my childhood and teenage years sometimes got patted on the cheek, smiled at and called 'a boy'
and it was so weird because I wasn't a tomboy, just have always acted out a girl. It feels like I'm a gay fairy inside a female body which seems strange to the real boy inside (breasts and so on) but I love my female appearance - you can put on make up, dress it up.. >
Has anyone of you heard of people having these feelings like moi? By the way, hard as I try I never get close to the female way of gesturing and behaving - it's somehow overgestured and sooo exaggerated. And when I get confused I immediately feel myself a fairy. I desperately needed to know what I am - not a complete female (just like an actor playing a female part) and not a male (can't think of having hairy legs and other 'macho' features, uugh
) And in the presence of men, who just find me weird sometimes - they try to treat me like other women, but I feel so self conscious and mess it all up
And by the way I've always listened to queer music and love 'rainbow' culture
So, I found your web site, read your forum and now thanks to all of you, dear folks, I'm proud to come out as a third gender (I preferred to call it this way). I share some characteristics with other androgynes - those fluctuations of mood - sometimes I feel more female, sometimes more masculine, sometimes more gaily playful, but finally I can be myself. I've been myself since Monday among my workmates and got a comment that I'm strange - but no, I'm finally myself, stopped mimicking girls around - I'll never be a girl so no more a wolf in the sheepskin, let them look at me in a strange way and smile - I don't care. I'm out and proud, third gender and makeup!!!!
Peace to you all!!! And who can tell me if we have our pride flag and if we belong in the rainbow community?
Warmest hugs to all,
J
